stands.
âLittle smoke âcause thereâs no green on it,â his father says, stepping close. âAlways pick dead ones.â
Only then does Armando notice the tree next to him. Itâs largely limbless save a few dead branches near the top.
âIâll do this one,â his father says. âNow listen. You just burn one. I got too cocky. Out of control.â
He steps to the snag and pours gasoline over the bottom two feet of the tree.
âWow,â he says. âYeah. Thatâs the smell.â He pinches a match and holds it in his left hand between his thumb and index finger.
Armando stares in wonderment. âTheyâll see the smoke,â he says.
âGetting dark, son.â His father shakes his head. âAnd thereâs no
they.
â
âOkay.â
âMost of the law is good, but some of itâs shit.â He shakes out his arms. âYou already know that. You may think different, and I donât care. Just never say I didnât know what I was doing. You understand? Donât ever say that.â He points the match at his sonâs chest. âThatâs the worst thing you can say about someone, that they donât know what theyâre doing. Doesnât matter how old. We should hang kids that kill people. They know enough.â He pauses and examines the unlit match. âIf you have a drink, thatâs fine. Your mother will wake up and disagree.â
âI try things.â
âGood.â
âSome things.â
âAlways believe in God. Youâll be tempted. People believe in gravity. No one knows what the hell it is. Thereâs no difference.â
âWhat?â
âBe suspicious of Jesus. No one understands whatâs going on there.â
His father strikes the match on the side of the box and cups the miniflame. Armandoâs head buzzes, and he steps forward.
âCan I?â he asks, but his father ignores him, and Armando sees his fatherâs mouth move, but no sound emerges. His father flicks the match at the base of the tree and the flame catches and climbs. The tree lights up quickâa twenty-foot torch.
Armando canât find words to say, but in his mind many cartwheel by:
beautiful, free, power, hot, trouble, crime, glorious, God, coma, dead, Marie, prison, run.
Then his fatherâs voice.
âShe said I was a slob or something. Things go back and forth, then you dig up the good stuff, and I end up calling her an über-bitch. So she says sheâs going to stay at her sisterâs in Cortez. Fine. âGood,â I say. And she gathers her stuff, her priceless diploma. Gets in the car. All ready to go. But she sits out there forever. Sheâs not crying. Not doing anything. Just sitting. Not even touching the wheel. Finally she comes in. âItâs Sunday,â she says. âCanât spend money on gas on Sunday.â Thatâs it. She stays.â
âMom?â
âCanât spend money on Sunday? Canât live like that, man. Donât talk about it.â He takes a step toward the fire.
âAnd they say I killed a man. Bull. He killed himself. Intent matters. We pay people to kill. We give them awards. We call people heroes because they get shot down trying to bomb people. How does that make you a hero? You survive the Hanoi Hilton and youâre a hero? You firebomb Dresden or Tokyo and youâre a hero? Ask about LeMay.â
âWhat?â
âYou need to know Iâve never killed anyone. Doesnât make sense. Why would I do that?â
âYou wouldnât.â
âGo,â he says. âI want you to go.â
Armando doesnât move, still mesmerized. His father walks over to him and gently squeezes his neck.
âGet in the car,â his father says. âIâll see you at home. I mean it.â He turns his son to face him and smiles.
âDad, I donât have a license.â
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