have risen and walked out with my head held high.
Instead, I forced myself to say, âI came to ask if you would very kindly let me borrow a few clothes from the theatre stores.â
âClothes? For yourself, Clarrie?â
I nodded.
âDresses?â
I shook my head. âA bright blue jacket. A pair of knickerbockers. And, if I can find them, a pair of striped school socks.â
She raised an eyebrow. âYou seem a little old for dress-up games.â
âNo, no. I thought, if I could find a jacket and knickerbockers to fit, then I could cut off my hairââ
âCut off your hair?â
âAs short as a boyâs. Then I could take my turn on stage as Frozen Billyâs twin.â
She stared at me. âYou? On stage, Clarrie? What would your uncle think of that?â
âI havenât told him yet. But he did once warn Will, âBe sure, on the day I finally find Still Lucy, I will be offering your job to Clarrie.â â
Madame Terrazini chuckled. âThe day he finds Still Lucy! You are a family of dreamers, Clarrie!â Her face grew serious. âIâve heard that Mrs Trimble and Miss Foy work you hard enough. Why would you add to your burdens by taking your brotherâs place on stage?â
âTo save him!â I burst out. âHe works night after night. His temper sours, and nothing cheers him. If I could take his place, then he could rest and his good spirits might return to him.â
She smiled at me. âOn stage to save your brother? Your lovely hair cut short? I tell you, you have the courage of a lion. A lion, Clarrie!â
My heart was lifting. âSo I may go in the storerooms?â
âYes, of course.â
âAnd try to take Willâs place?â
She spread her hands. âClarrie, your uncle knows his business. If you can satisfy him, I have no doubt you can satisfy me and the audience.â She sighed. âMaybe itâs for the best. Anyone can see that things are very wrong between your brother and uncle. Out there on stage the two of them seize every chance to snarl at one another and pick over ancient battles. You have the look of someone hovering over a sickbed, and scuttle away each time I remind you we have business to settleââ
That word again. âBusiness?â
âYour brotherâs wages!â She waved a hand towards the huge safe standing in the corner. âYou canât believe Iâd trust a boy his age to carry the amounts heâs earned home in his knickerbocker pockets!â
âBut surely, Uncle Len hasâ?â
âUncle Len?â She threw up her hands in mock despair. âOh, Clarrie, would you have me watch your brother work so hard, only to see your uncle drink his wages away in the Soldier at Arms straight after? How could you even think it? Oh, my dear child!â
âBut we all thought . . .â
Now she was staring at me as much as I at her. âSmall wonder, then, that your poor brother is in such a pet! I wonder Len hasnât put him straight, if only to improve his temper.â
âI donât believe my uncle knows. You see, you give him more than you did beforeââ
âA mere pittance more, I admit, now there are two of them to pay.â
âBut more. Enough to confuse him into thinking that was the new wage for them both.â
She roared with laughter. âThen Lenâs no better with his figures than with his letters, Clarrie!â Again, she chuckled. âIâll leave it to you to turn your brotherâs growls to smiles. Youâve earned that pleasure.â Her face grew serious. âMeantime, letâs hear no more about you cutting off your hair and going on the stage.â
She drew a few notes from a drawer. âHere. Take a little now to pay your rent and fill your larder. Iâll keep the rest in my safe.â Pressing the money into my hand, she ushered me