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hand and I barely notice Ethan picking it up off the floor and when his mouth starts moving, I don’t hear anything but a buzzing sound in my ears.
Everything else is blur is there.
Ethan sorts everything out.
We leave his place and he put me in his car, he drives us to the hospital, he even sorts everything out when we get there, he talks to the staff so we get taken to the right floor.
When the nurse tells us to go to the waiting room and I spot Lexi and Matt, those black dots from five years ago come back, they start taking over my vision and everything seems to become real.
This is actually happening.
I feel a sharp pain in my knees when they hit the floor but there’s just one thing on my mind.
Not again.
Sixteen
Okay, so I fainted. Again . But at least it’s when I hear some terrible news and not at the sight of blood or something. This time though, it seems I was only out for a second or two because when I open my eyes again, Lilith and Matt are only just kneeling besides me. Unless, of course, I’ve been out a few minutes and they were talking to each other instead of seeing what was wrong with me.
“Lil, Jesus, are you okay?” Matt grabs both of my shoulders, jerking me off of the floor slightly.
“Uh...”
“You hit the floor hard, honey.” Lexi frowns at me.
“Dad?” I ask when the last half an hour hits me again. I feel my eyes fill up and try to stop it by sheer force of will.
“Let’s just get you up, yeah?” Matt asks and before I can reply, he’s lifting me off the floor and lowering me into one of the plastic chairs in the waiting room.
“It’s bad, isn’t it? Oh God, how bad?” I ask looking at both of them in turn.
“I’ll just go tell one of his doctors that you’re here,” Matt says and rushes out of the room before I can insist that he stays and tells me everything.
“What the hell is going on?” I demand when Lexi just watches Matt run out of the room nervously.
“Uh…well…”
“Cut the shit Lexi,” I grab her hand, probably a lot harder than I should, but I need to stop her from running away. Tell me what you know.”
“I don’t know anything. No, really,” She rushes on when my grip tightens. “They wouldn’t tell me anything, all we know is that there was a car accident and we came straight here.”
“If that’s all there is to it, why are you both acting so strange?”
“Well, because it was a car accident. I mean, how many people do you know who have lost everyone they love because of a car accident? I wouldn’t blame you if you never went in another car ever again.”
“It’s not the cars though.”
“No.” She smiles sadly and sits down next to me, laying her head on my shoulder. “You wouldn’t think it was, would you?”
“I can’t lose him, Lex.” I finally admit.
“I know,”
“I can’t lose him. Don’t you think I’ve lost enough?”
“You have,” She sniffs and I’m not sure if she’s crying or if I am but I’m imagining that she is.
“If I lose him, it’ll be official.”
“What will?”
“I don’t have anything left. I’ve lost everyone.”
“Not everyone.” She says it so softly that I almost miss it.
“I know I have you, but that’s not what I meant.”
“No, I know what you meant. Still, you haven’t lost everyone.” She points across the room and I turn my head to look at what she’s pointing at.
“Oh,” The breath whooshes out of me as my eyes lock with Jason’s.
He’s stood in the doorway with Cal, they’re complete opposites in some ways but they’ve always been the closest two of the group. Well, for the last ten years anyway. But right now they are wearing different expressions. Jason looks as though it’s his own father in the hospital, as if he’s the one who is about to lose the last person on earth who loves him. Cal though, Cal looks as though he understands more than he should. He looks worried and sympathetic.
Not able to deal with the grief that
Everything else is blur is there.
Ethan sorts everything out.
We leave his place and he put me in his car, he drives us to the hospital, he even sorts everything out when we get there, he talks to the staff so we get taken to the right floor.
When the nurse tells us to go to the waiting room and I spot Lexi and Matt, those black dots from five years ago come back, they start taking over my vision and everything seems to become real.
This is actually happening.
I feel a sharp pain in my knees when they hit the floor but there’s just one thing on my mind.
Not again.
Sixteen
Okay, so I fainted. Again . But at least it’s when I hear some terrible news and not at the sight of blood or something. This time though, it seems I was only out for a second or two because when I open my eyes again, Lilith and Matt are only just kneeling besides me. Unless, of course, I’ve been out a few minutes and they were talking to each other instead of seeing what was wrong with me.
“Lil, Jesus, are you okay?” Matt grabs both of my shoulders, jerking me off of the floor slightly.
“Uh...”
“You hit the floor hard, honey.” Lexi frowns at me.
“Dad?” I ask when the last half an hour hits me again. I feel my eyes fill up and try to stop it by sheer force of will.
“Let’s just get you up, yeah?” Matt asks and before I can reply, he’s lifting me off the floor and lowering me into one of the plastic chairs in the waiting room.
“It’s bad, isn’t it? Oh God, how bad?” I ask looking at both of them in turn.
“I’ll just go tell one of his doctors that you’re here,” Matt says and rushes out of the room before I can insist that he stays and tells me everything.
“What the hell is going on?” I demand when Lexi just watches Matt run out of the room nervously.
“Uh…well…”
“Cut the shit Lexi,” I grab her hand, probably a lot harder than I should, but I need to stop her from running away. Tell me what you know.”
“I don’t know anything. No, really,” She rushes on when my grip tightens. “They wouldn’t tell me anything, all we know is that there was a car accident and we came straight here.”
“If that’s all there is to it, why are you both acting so strange?”
“Well, because it was a car accident. I mean, how many people do you know who have lost everyone they love because of a car accident? I wouldn’t blame you if you never went in another car ever again.”
“It’s not the cars though.”
“No.” She smiles sadly and sits down next to me, laying her head on my shoulder. “You wouldn’t think it was, would you?”
“I can’t lose him, Lex.” I finally admit.
“I know,”
“I can’t lose him. Don’t you think I’ve lost enough?”
“You have,” She sniffs and I’m not sure if she’s crying or if I am but I’m imagining that she is.
“If I lose him, it’ll be official.”
“What will?”
“I don’t have anything left. I’ve lost everyone.”
“Not everyone.” She says it so softly that I almost miss it.
“I know I have you, but that’s not what I meant.”
“No, I know what you meant. Still, you haven’t lost everyone.” She points across the room and I turn my head to look at what she’s pointing at.
“Oh,” The breath whooshes out of me as my eyes lock with Jason’s.
He’s stood in the doorway with Cal, they’re complete opposites in some ways but they’ve always been the closest two of the group. Well, for the last ten years anyway. But right now they are wearing different expressions. Jason looks as though it’s his own father in the hospital, as if he’s the one who is about to lose the last person on earth who loves him. Cal though, Cal looks as though he understands more than he should. He looks worried and sympathetic.
Not able to deal with the grief that
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