opinion, I fell asleep.
Chapter Eight
It didn’t take any time at all for me to fall into a deep sleep. I began to dream I was walking along the beach on the edge of the ocean. It was a beautiful sunny day and I felt happy for the first time in a very long time. Off in the distance a figure was walking towards me. I couldn’t make out who it was but I felt no fear as I hurried towards the person. The closer I got I could tell it was a man. My heart raced and tears filled my eyes when I realized it was Doug. Running as fast as I could in the sand, I threw myself into his arms laughing and sobbing at the same time.
Doug grabbed me in his arms and spun me around in the air holding me tight against his body.
“Oh Douglas, you feel so good. Please stay here with me and don’t go back,” I begged.
Doug set me on my feet in the sand with a huge radiant smile on his face. He brushed my cheek with his fingers as if to comfort me. “My love, you know I can’t do that. I have to go but I came to talk to you seriously about your future. I want you to listen to me and do as I say, Emily,” he demanded. “You are stubborn and refuse to do what is best for you. You are holding on to the past and if you don’t let go, it will make you a miserable old woman.”
I looked into his eyes and saw how at peace he was now. His face showed such love but it was different somehow. Yes, he still loved me dearly, I thought, but there was a love for something so much greater than what we originally had. Part of me was hurt and scared but another part knew it was what should be.
Taking his fingers from my face, he placed his hands on my shoulders looking me in the eyes and pleaded, “Emily, it is time to let go of me. You have an opportunity facing you that will enable you to grow stronger and love deeper. But you can’t do it, baby, if you are still clinging to my memories. I don’t want you to wall your heart up away from everyone. That is not the kind of love we had. You will realize which choice is the right choice to make. I won’t be with you anymore and I want to know that you are not alone.”
I felt my eyes stinging with tears as I watched his face and body dissolve into thin air pleading for him not to go. The next thing I was aware of was a deep voice behind me saying, “Well, little girl, what’s it going to be?” I turned around to find myself staring up into amazing blue-gray eyes while Alan was stroking my arms. Looking down at me, he sternly voiced his concern, “I won’t be a rebound, Emily!”
“Rebound?” I questioned. “I’m too old to start playing games now, Sir!”
He drew me against his chest and whispered into my ear, “Then know this! What we start tonight won’t be a onetime affair. You’re in it until I decide differently!” A shudder ran through my body as his lips caressed my neck.
A loud buzzing woke me from my dream. My heart was pounding and sweat was pouring down my neck onto my chest as I slapped the alarm off. I immediately sat up, trying desperately to catch my breath. It was so real; I could still feel Alan’s lips and breath against my neck. I felt as if I had been running a marathon.
I wobbled into the bathroom and threw cold water onto my face. The dream had totally knocked me to my knees since I had finally stopped having dreams of Doug a few months ago. And Alan, oh my God, I could still feel his lips on me. His voice was commanding in that dream and I wanted to hear more of it. I wanted him to take control of me emotionally and physically. There, I admitted it to myself finally! Doug had given his blessing even if it was just a dream. I knew it wasn’t real but in my mind I had finally let go of my memories of him. Never would I stop loving him but now it would no longer prevent me from loving again or feel guilty about desiring someone else.
I showered, dried my hair, and went to my closet to decide what to
Chapter Eight
It didn’t take any time at all for me to fall into a deep sleep. I began to dream I was walking along the beach on the edge of the ocean. It was a beautiful sunny day and I felt happy for the first time in a very long time. Off in the distance a figure was walking towards me. I couldn’t make out who it was but I felt no fear as I hurried towards the person. The closer I got I could tell it was a man. My heart raced and tears filled my eyes when I realized it was Doug. Running as fast as I could in the sand, I threw myself into his arms laughing and sobbing at the same time.
Doug grabbed me in his arms and spun me around in the air holding me tight against his body.
“Oh Douglas, you feel so good. Please stay here with me and don’t go back,” I begged.
Doug set me on my feet in the sand with a huge radiant smile on his face. He brushed my cheek with his fingers as if to comfort me. “My love, you know I can’t do that. I have to go but I came to talk to you seriously about your future. I want you to listen to me and do as I say, Emily,” he demanded. “You are stubborn and refuse to do what is best for you. You are holding on to the past and if you don’t let go, it will make you a miserable old woman.”
I looked into his eyes and saw how at peace he was now. His face showed such love but it was different somehow. Yes, he still loved me dearly, I thought, but there was a love for something so much greater than what we originally had. Part of me was hurt and scared but another part knew it was what should be.
Taking his fingers from my face, he placed his hands on my shoulders looking me in the eyes and pleaded, “Emily, it is time to let go of me. You have an opportunity facing you that will enable you to grow stronger and love deeper. But you can’t do it, baby, if you are still clinging to my memories. I don’t want you to wall your heart up away from everyone. That is not the kind of love we had. You will realize which choice is the right choice to make. I won’t be with you anymore and I want to know that you are not alone.”
I felt my eyes stinging with tears as I watched his face and body dissolve into thin air pleading for him not to go. The next thing I was aware of was a deep voice behind me saying, “Well, little girl, what’s it going to be?” I turned around to find myself staring up into amazing blue-gray eyes while Alan was stroking my arms. Looking down at me, he sternly voiced his concern, “I won’t be a rebound, Emily!”
“Rebound?” I questioned. “I’m too old to start playing games now, Sir!”
He drew me against his chest and whispered into my ear, “Then know this! What we start tonight won’t be a onetime affair. You’re in it until I decide differently!” A shudder ran through my body as his lips caressed my neck.
A loud buzzing woke me from my dream. My heart was pounding and sweat was pouring down my neck onto my chest as I slapped the alarm off. I immediately sat up, trying desperately to catch my breath. It was so real; I could still feel Alan’s lips and breath against my neck. I felt as if I had been running a marathon.
I wobbled into the bathroom and threw cold water onto my face. The dream had totally knocked me to my knees since I had finally stopped having dreams of Doug a few months ago. And Alan, oh my God, I could still feel his lips on me. His voice was commanding in that dream and I wanted to hear more of it. I wanted him to take control of me emotionally and physically. There, I admitted it to myself finally! Doug had given his blessing even if it was just a dream. I knew it wasn’t real but in my mind I had finally let go of my memories of him. Never would I stop loving him but now it would no longer prevent me from loving again or feel guilty about desiring someone else.
I showered, dried my hair, and went to my closet to decide what to
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