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By the time I pushed open the classroom door and headed towards my seat, I knew without looking at Mr. Walker that he’d be frowning at me.
Leo didn’t look at me as I sat down next to him. I thought that he was meant to be my best friend, and I really could have done with one of those right then. Instead, he was still being lame.
Mr. Walker paced in silence down one of the aisles in between the desks, paused in front of my desk, and sighed as he placed a red piece of paper before me and then walked off. I heard some girls sat behind me start giggling, and I didn’t have to turn around to know that it was Veronica and Rose. Great, if Finn hadn’t confused me enough, he’d now gone and caused me to get a detention slip.
I stuffed the slip into the front of my bag, and then I found myself staring out of the window. I looked at the now empty spot on the school field where I’d seen Finn.
Should I meet Finn later, or should I just forget about him? My parents were dead, which was why I’d been shoved from one foster home to another throughout my life. If my mum was still alive, then why didn’t she raise me? Why would she have given me away and let me think that she was dead?
As soon as registration was over I grabbed my bag and beat Leo out of the classroom. My first class was English, which wasn’t with Leo. Normally I hated sitting in Mrs. Bowen’s always-cold classroom as she droned on about literature in her low-pitched voice, but today I was glad to get a break from Leo.
I took my seat at the back of the room, in front of the board that had a load of book quotes stuck to it, and I prepared to fall into a daydream state for the next hour. Someone put their bag on the desk next to mine, and I looked up as I chewed on the corner of my lip. It was then that I saw Megan. She had a red hairband in her glossy hair, and she was smiling at me. No one ever sat by me besides Leo, so I didn’t get why they were now, let alone Megan. She could have sat by whoever she wanted too, and there were other spare seats. What if it was because of Brandon? What if he had told her what I could do, and now she wanted to confront me?
‘Hi,’ she said as she sat down.
‘Hey,’ I said, trying not to sound as flustered as I felt.
She didn’t say any more, and as she took her textbooks out of her bag, I made sure that my row of pens was lined up straight.
The whole Megan thing was odd, but it was nothing compared to what Finn had said, and I found myself unable to shove thoughts of that boy from my head.
***
Have you ever felt like you didn’t quite fit in even though you wanted to? Have you ever tried to change so that people would like you more even though you weren’t being true to yourself? Have you ever wanted to stand in a room full of people and scream the loudest that you could until your voice went hoarse?
Every foster home I got passed from, I didn’t feel like I belonged, and at every school I was sent to, people sensed that I wasn’t like them. However hard I tried, I would always be different, and I would end up doing something to make things even worse. I couldn’t control who I was and what I could do. Maybe this was why my mum gave me away. Maybe she was so afraid of me that she wanted me to believe that she was dead so that I would never go looking for her. If my own mum didn’t love me, then how could anyone else? How could I be expected to love myself?
I thought that this time things would be different, but really it was just the same as the others. Right now it was lunchtime, yet I was sat alone in the classroom, staring out of the window as I picked at the cheese sandwich that
Leo didn’t look at me as I sat down next to him. I thought that he was meant to be my best friend, and I really could have done with one of those right then. Instead, he was still being lame.
Mr. Walker paced in silence down one of the aisles in between the desks, paused in front of my desk, and sighed as he placed a red piece of paper before me and then walked off. I heard some girls sat behind me start giggling, and I didn’t have to turn around to know that it was Veronica and Rose. Great, if Finn hadn’t confused me enough, he’d now gone and caused me to get a detention slip.
I stuffed the slip into the front of my bag, and then I found myself staring out of the window. I looked at the now empty spot on the school field where I’d seen Finn.
Should I meet Finn later, or should I just forget about him? My parents were dead, which was why I’d been shoved from one foster home to another throughout my life. If my mum was still alive, then why didn’t she raise me? Why would she have given me away and let me think that she was dead?
As soon as registration was over I grabbed my bag and beat Leo out of the classroom. My first class was English, which wasn’t with Leo. Normally I hated sitting in Mrs. Bowen’s always-cold classroom as she droned on about literature in her low-pitched voice, but today I was glad to get a break from Leo.
I took my seat at the back of the room, in front of the board that had a load of book quotes stuck to it, and I prepared to fall into a daydream state for the next hour. Someone put their bag on the desk next to mine, and I looked up as I chewed on the corner of my lip. It was then that I saw Megan. She had a red hairband in her glossy hair, and she was smiling at me. No one ever sat by me besides Leo, so I didn’t get why they were now, let alone Megan. She could have sat by whoever she wanted too, and there were other spare seats. What if it was because of Brandon? What if he had told her what I could do, and now she wanted to confront me?
‘Hi,’ she said as she sat down.
‘Hey,’ I said, trying not to sound as flustered as I felt.
She didn’t say any more, and as she took her textbooks out of her bag, I made sure that my row of pens was lined up straight.
The whole Megan thing was odd, but it was nothing compared to what Finn had said, and I found myself unable to shove thoughts of that boy from my head.
***
Have you ever felt like you didn’t quite fit in even though you wanted to? Have you ever tried to change so that people would like you more even though you weren’t being true to yourself? Have you ever wanted to stand in a room full of people and scream the loudest that you could until your voice went hoarse?
Every foster home I got passed from, I didn’t feel like I belonged, and at every school I was sent to, people sensed that I wasn’t like them. However hard I tried, I would always be different, and I would end up doing something to make things even worse. I couldn’t control who I was and what I could do. Maybe this was why my mum gave me away. Maybe she was so afraid of me that she wanted me to believe that she was dead so that I would never go looking for her. If my own mum didn’t love me, then how could anyone else? How could I be expected to love myself?
I thought that this time things would be different, but really it was just the same as the others. Right now it was lunchtime, yet I was sat alone in the classroom, staring out of the window as I picked at the cheese sandwich that
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