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January 1968
    Week Two: 278
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    Even though he won’t
    admit it, I blew up my
    dad’s football career.
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    They say he had a
    future in the NFL,
    but his senior year
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    at the U of A
    he quit football because he
    got my mom pregnant.
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    Mom’s parents disowned
    her, and to them, she and I
    no longer exist.
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    She has a scrapbook
    filled with photos and clippings
    of Dad when he played
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    defensive back for
    the Arizona Wildcats,
    and my favorite
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    action photo shows
    him leaping and reaching for
    an interception.
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    The camera had caught
    him right when he snagged the ball.
    His head’s back, and you
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    can’t see his face, but
    you can see his taut forearms
    knotted with muscle
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    and the big number
    seventeen on his jersey.
    Even as a kid,
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    I recognized the
    strength and grace in that picture,
    and I knew he’d been
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    special, talented,
    and I made up my mind to
    be like him one day.
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    Maybe I’d never
    be as good as he was, but
    I thought that if I
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    worked hard and became
    a great athlete, somehow that
    would make up for his
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    loss. It turned out I
    was wrong. I never had to
    prove anything to
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    Dad. His love for me
    was as sure and solid as
    the U.S. Marines.
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    Too bad he didn’t
    feel that way about Mom. He
    resented her for
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    the mistake that killed
    his football career, the same
    mistake that forced him
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    to marry her. Back
    in 1950, things worked
    that way: if a guy
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    knocked up a girl, he
    married her to make it right.
    It doesn’t happen
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    like that nowadays.
    It’s 1968, and
    young people believe
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    in free love, and there
    are plenty of ways to take
    care of a mistake.
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    By getting married,
    Mom and Dad did the right thing,
    and they have been good
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    parents to me, and
    I’m grateful to them both for
    putting up with each
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    other for my sake.
    I wish there was some way I
    could make it right, make
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    them
right, but ending
    the long, cold war between them
    was as likely as
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    a black man being
    elected president of
    the United States.
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    It’s not going to
    happen, but, man, wouldn’t it
    be great if it did?

January 1968
    Week Three: 218
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    Mr. Ruby, my
    U.S. history teacher,
    wrote a number on
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    the board to begin
    every class. Today it was
    â€œtwo hundred eighteen.”
    Â 
    His gray hair was slicked
    back, like always, and his shirt-
    sleeves were rolled up, like
    Â 
    always. The faded
    Marine tattoo inside his
    wrist showed while he wrote
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    on the board. Then he
    asked, “What’s the significance
    of this number?” I
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    didn’t respond, but
    I knew exactly what it
    meant. I read the news.
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    Every Thursday,
The
    Phoenix Gazette
reported
    the casualties
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    from the previous
    week. But nobody in class
    knew that. They guessed all
    Â 
    kinds of dumb answers,
    and no one even came close.
    They don’t like thinking
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    about dead soldiers
    in Vietnam; neither did
    I, but I couldn’t
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    help looking for that
    news article every week
    and skimming it for
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    the casualty
    report. Usually it’s
    just numbers, but if
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    some guy from Tempe
    or Mesa or Phoenix was
    killed, they’ll mention his
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    name and maybe print
    a photo of him dressed in
    his uniform and
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    staring like he’s dead
    serious. Well, now he’s just
    dead. Looking into
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    his steely gaze made
    me feel hollow, sick, and sad.
    I looked anyway.

January 1968
    Week Four: 471
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    Things mellowed out at
    home. Motorola kept Dad
    busy, and Mom stopped
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    attending rallies
    at ASU. She’s not a
    hippie or some kind
    Â 
    of freak, she just feels
    too much. What’s going on in
    Vietnam sickens
    Â 
    her, and what’s going
    on in America makes
    her sick, too. Well, it
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    doesn’t really make
    her sick, it makes her
mad.
And
    when she’s mad, she’s