boy I loved.
The boy that promised me he would never hurt me.
My best friend. My boy. My Bo.
Lucas…
“It’s okay, Alex, calm down,” Mama coaxed. She helped me finish in the bathroom and then we walked into my room.
Mrs. Ryder sat on my bed. “Congratulations. Welcome to womanhood,” she celebrated.
I leaned into my mom, needing the support and comfort.
“Is this about my boy, Alex?”
I looked up at my mom and she nodded in reassurance. I lowered my head, shrugging.
She sighed. “You know your mama and I have actually been talking about this for a very long time.”
I immediately looked up at her.
“Yes. That’s right.” She nodded. “This isn’t much of a shock to us. My boy has been smitten with you since the moment you were born. I remember when your mama was pregnant, he would go up to her belly and say that it was his baby in there.” They laughed, no one had ever told me that before.
“He loved you before you were even born, Alex. He just knew you were going to be a girl. Every time we corrected him he would vigorously shake his head saying girl. He’s growing up, honey, you both are. I know it may hurt now, and you may not understand what is happening, but it’s part of life. You both need to try new things, make new friends, go places, be teenagers. Let other people in besides those good ol’ boys of yours. You’ve been attached to those boys since the day you were born, just like they are to you. Life is too short for you to ever question that something better could have come along. Do you understand?”
I sadly smiled, wiping away my tears. “You don’t want Lucas and I together?”
“No, honey, I don’t want either of you to settle down until you know what else life has to offer, and if one day you find your way back to each other then you know. You know it’s for sure. There will be no doubts and no regrets.”
I lowered my head. “Yeah,” was all I could say.
“Now,” Mama interjected, picking up my chin. “Enough of this crying, Alex, I think today is a great day.” She clapped her hands. “You want to know why?”
“Why?” I chuckled.
“Let’s celebrate! Because you’re a officially a young woman and I think that maybe you should consider—”
“Being a girl,” I interrupted.
They beamed and we spent the next hour giving me a makeover.
I never imagined I would get the reaction that I got from the boys. They all seemed pleased and satisfied, almost as if they’d been expecting it to happen.
Except Lucas.
I ignored him, mostly because I didn’t know what to say or what to make of his overbearing demeanor toward me. It burned a hole in my side and I wasn’t going to let him affect me when I felt so pretty. This was all new to me, especially that reaction. I watched Lucas and Jacob from afar, and I could see both of their pissed off faces from where I sat at the table.
“What’s going on out there?” I asked Dylan.
He shrugged. “Guy stuff.”
I scooted my seat out.
“Half-Pint, don’t get involved.”
I walked toward them before the last word left his mouth.
I felt their hostility as soon as my sandals hit the sand. “What’s going on?”
They both spun, facing me.
“Nothin’,” Jacob announced, his attitude calming.
“It doesn’t look like nothin’.” I paused, taking in Lucas’s heated composure but not toward Jacob, toward me. “What?”
The glares in his eyes were intimidating to say the least, and all it did was add to the confusion that had been brewing between us. Except this time Jacob witnessed it. At least I thought he did. I could feel his pissed off stance and he wasn’t even touching me. Everything was directed at me. The eye of the storm was right in front of me, and his stare held mine until he couldn’t anymore and then he receded, walking away from me for the first time. Which did nothing but enrich the hurt in my heart.
“Stay away from him till he calms down, Half-Pint.”
I glanced at Jacob.
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