him.â
âWho?â
âEspy! What are we talking about? He was old by then, sick.â
âForgotten?â
âNot really. Never, really, but he hadnât chased a story in years. Naah, decades. He missed it. You never really lose that addiction, being an adrenaline junkie.â
Like someone else I knew?
âI met him because we were doing a story about him, some anniversary thing. They got out a bunch of old pictures he took, and got one of him, himself, very rare. He always said he belonged behind the lens, not in front of it. He lived upstate then, all retired.â
He reached for another piece of bread. âReally hated it. I mean, he could see cows out the window. This is a guy who lived across from a police station so he never missed out on a story.â
âYouâre making that up.â
âNo, I am not and I didnât just hear it from him.â He grinned at me. âAlways have to have some corroboration and I did. I got the address and believe me, it was a real dump.â
I looked around his living room without a word and he saw me do it.
âWorse. Way worse. One room, bathtub in the kitchen. But he could see the station out the one window, and could be out and on a cop call in two minutes. Like the man says, location, location, location.â
There he was, Leary the living, breathing time machine. Thatâs why I put up with him. And because I have become fond of him. Hard to explain but true.
âI have a book from the exhibit.â
âYeah? Learn anything?â He was now scraping tomato sauce out of the pasta bowl.
âDid you know he was a Brooklyn boy? He came from Brownsville.â
Leary shrugged. âDonât know if I did, or not. It wasnât important. His whole career was shooting the dark side of Manhattan. And he started real young, like a kid. You could do that then. Ya know? No one cared about his roots.â
âWell, I care. Iâm looking at Brownsville now for my dissertation.â
âWhen are you going to get that thing done?â He looked mischievous. He knows itâs not a welcome question.
I shocked us both by tearing up.
âHey, hey.â Itâs probably the only time Iâve ever seen him with no words. He handed me a napkin. I mopped my eyes, took a gulp of wine and a deep breath. Two deep breaths.
âSorry about that. I just feel likeâ¦some daysâ¦Iâm stuck in the swamp. Forever.â
He was silent, drinking. Finally he said, âEven been stuck in a real swamp?â
âWhat?â
âYour tears are clouding up your eyes, not your ears. You heard me. I said, âreal swamp.ââ
I stopped crying. âI live in Brooklyn. New York. Not in, like, Louisiana.â
âI thought so. No real swamps. Bet youâve never even seen one?â
He seemed to be waiting for an answer. âTrue.â
âYou got no idea. I was in âNam. There are real swamps and then there are problems, okay? You have a problem. So fix it.â
Strangely, his lack of sympathy helped. I took another deep breath, looked him in the eyes and said, âWhat do you know about old-time Brownsville?â
It turned out to be nothing. It was never his home or his beat, but he did have a few more stories about Espy. I couldnât figure out how I could use them in my work, but I wanted to.
Back home I left a note on my door for Chris, âDo not wake me,â and staggered off to bed hoping to sleep a long time.
The call that woke me the next morning was the NYPD. They caught me just before I needed to leave for work. They wanted me for a lineup today, as soon as I could get there, to help identify some young men who had accosted me the other day.
Oh, crap, I thought. My days, my whole life, was tightly scheduled. There was no room for this.
I called the museum and told them I had an emergency. Then I e-mailed my actual boss with more details and headed out
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