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She then had to deal with Duke. She knew that there was something more to their relationship but she didn’t know what they were.
    “What does it matter to you?”
    “He’s Ella’s husband!”
    “Was Mom, was.” Paxton couldn’t face her.
    “She would still be with him if it wasn’t for you,” her mother spat out.
    “When are you going to stop reminding me of what I did?! Don’t you think I remind myself everyday of what happened?!”
    “Obviously not if you are bringing him here the first day you are out of the mental facility!” Her mother shouted back.
    “I was only in there because it got me away from you, away from this place and away from everyone’s whispers about why Ella isn’t here!” Tears ran down Paxton’s face. She didn’t want to deal with this right now. She couldn’t handle anything else tonight.
    “What about Jack? Why wouldn’t you call him before Duke?”
    “Because I divorced him today,” Paxton let out. She saw her mother’s face drop.
    “So you called Duke to comfort you the same day you let Jack go?!”
    Paxton just shook her head, she knew this was not helping anything right now and she felt like she just wanted to crawl under a rock and stay there until everyone forgot about her.
    “Mom, I can’t do this. I just can’t. It’s too much.”
    She laid down on her side staring at the wall now. She waited for her mother to say something but she didn’t. Paxton then heard footsteps walking around upstairs. She knew that would be the end of it tonight.
    She closed her eyes and focused on her breathing again. She wished the facility had some sort of yoga program when she was there. She always loved going to her yoga class. It centered her in her crazy life as a surgeon.  She took deep breaths trying to relax and focus on herself versus everything around her. She needed to mentally escape her surroundings, the events of the day, and her mind floating through what her life used to be like. She needed to focus on her, here and now. Not about the past but thoughts of her future and how she was going to rebuild her life.
    As she focused on her breathing, Paxton’s phone started ringing. She thought maybe it was Duke checking in on her. She couldn’t imagine who it could be otherwise. She kept her eyes close and felt for her phone. She found it and hit the button to pick it up. She knew her phone like the back of her hand.
    “Hello?” She took a deep breath in.
    “Why did you sign them?” Paxton’s eyes flew open and she exhaled quickly as she heard Jack’s voice.
    “I only did what you wanted.”
    Why was he calling? She felt her heart rate speed up. He still had the effect on her. He could make her swoon just by talking to her. She couldn’t stop the reaction.
    “It’s not what I want anymore, that’s why I came back for you Tiger. I miss you and I’m miserable without you.”
    Silence followed as if he was waiting for her response. She heard the familiar heart monitor in the back ground. She noticed in the few seconds it sped up slightly.
    “I’m sorry Jack.” That was all Paxton could manage.
    “Don’t. Please just talk to me.”
    He was searching for something, but Paxton wasn’t sure what he wanted to hear from her. All Paxton heard was his voice, yelling, saying he didn’t want her. Then the door slam.
    “Do you remember what you said as you slammed the door and left me crumpled on the floor in our cabin?” She waited a few seconds before continuing, “Because I do Jack. That wasn’t the sound of someone who wanted to work through things. That wasn’t the sound of someone who loved another person. The words people say when they are angry often ring some sort of truth when they say them.”
    Jack said nothing. Paxton knew she was not in the best place to speak about hurting someone. She hurt him in so many ways, there would be no way that he would forgive her for it. If he did truly forgive her, there was no way that he could forget what she did. He