hadnât said anything yet.
Charlie threw his bagel in the sand beneath us. âIâm so sick of that. The so-called adults. Think they know it all with their questions.â He clasped his hands together, looking for all the world like my mother. âCharlie, angel, you donât know anyone with a gun, do you? Do you ever feel angry, honey? Do you ever feel misunderstood?â He turned to me. âWell, do you, Paul?â
I started. The merry-go-round squealed. St. John and Meat laughed. Finally, I said, âI donât know.â
âDonât you, Paul?â
âDonât you, Paul?â St. John echoed.
âDonât you, Paul?â Meat, with a giggle.
Charlie said, âSure you do, Paul.â He patted my shoulder. âHow could you not? The so-called adults donât understand, do they? They donât understand about honor. They donât understand about loving your friends, about taking care of one another.â
I looked at Charlie. Then, Meat and St. John, a tall shape and a bulky one. Were they my friends? I mean, they never even talked to me at school. Yet Charlie spoke of friendship, love even. And here they were including me, letting me be part of this night. This incredible night.
âRight,â I said.
âThey arenât like us,â Meat said.
âRight. Thatâs why I get mad when you two bicker like children.â Charlie gestured toward St. John and Meat. âOr when Einstein here acts like a scared little boy getting to play with the big kids. âCause we have to stick together, have to be loyal, respect one another. Have to take control.â
ââCause everyone thinks weâre scum,â Meat said.
âThey donât know better,â Charlie said.
âBut we do, right?â St. John said.
I turned, feeling Charlieâs closeness. He nodded. âRight, Paul?â
I shifted. Why was Charlie putting me on the spot? But I said, âRight.â
Before Iâd turned to Charlie, Iâd been watching down the street. Now, I looked back. A car. A police cruiser, lights off. It curled around the outer edge of the park, closer and closer. Finally, it pulled beside St. Johnâs truck and stopped.
âShit,â St. John whispered. I felt something like a foot to my stomach.
âBe cool.â Charlieâs eyes narrowed.
The door opened. The cop stepped out, a short, muscular guy, the kind who became a cop so he could have authority over someone. Like guys Dad knew in the army. Or Dad.
âMorning, boys.â
âMorning, Officer.â Charlie, who was sober, stood.
The cop eyed us. âI said , good morning, boys.â
I shifted an arm on the cold, metal bar and said, âGood morning, Officerâ with the others. The merry-go-round squeaked. Would they call my mother? Iâd rather just die in jail.
The cop came closer, walking chest-out. âWhat are you boys doing out this time of night?â
Again, Charlie picked up the slack. âWaiting for sunrise, sir, reliving childhood memories.â He gestured toward the merry-go-round. âItâs not a school night, sir.â
âLittle breakfast, I see?â The cop gestured toward the bagels, just a small bag. The others were hidden.
âYes, sir. Care for one?â Charlieâhow could he be so cool?âCharlie reached for the bag by St. Johnâs feet.
The cop stiffened, like he thought Charlie might go for a weapon, then relaxed. âNo, thanks.â I heard the grit of sand under my shoes, the sound of night insects, and watched, mesmerized, the strobing light on his squad car, turning, turning. The cop turned on his flashlight, shone it on St. Johnâs truck. âThis your car, son?â
Charlie nudged St. John, who said, âItâs mine.â
âMind if I have a look?â Without waiting for an answer, the cop walked closer.
Oh, God . All those bagels. If he saw
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