sweat. He said I was “beautiful.” My porcelain white cheeks blushed. Ms. Crystobal said she’d resume her duties now. She promptly left without another word. Wyn was very pleased with our dance. The good scientist had taken copious notes – like Jane Goodall observing wild chimpanzees.
Blood Memories helped me learn more about who I really was. I was beginning to see that I wasn’t the self others had shaped me to be. I wasn’t the girl my parents had framed, not the grade schooler my peers had rejected, not the high schooler my classmates had ignored. My journey as a Blood Vivicanti was a path toward my true self. Was my “true” self a blood drinker? Yes and no. I needed to drink blood, yes. That was my nature now. Blood drinking happens when you’re a Blood Vivicanti. Blood Memories happen when you drink blood. And I liked drinking blood. I just liked eating memories a little more. My true “self” would be the woman I’ve grown into – the woman I’m still growing into. No: Blood Vivicanti do not grow outwardly. But we can mature inwardly.
I stayed drunk on Theo’s Blood Memories for the whole week. The hangover was bad.
Theo became sad and brooding again when his Blood Memories faded. He liked playing the violin as much as he had liked rock climbing. He did not like losing his skills. He missed them all. All he had after they faded were memories of Blood Memories. Wyn was similar. With the Blood Memories of the astronomer, Wyn had understood much about life and growth beyond the limits of the Milky Way. He became very mournful when his Blood Memories faded. It was as if someone had died. Wyn listened to a tombeau all day. I’ve never understood why Theo and Wyn used to get that way. Blood Memories do not fade in me. My photographic memory will not let them.
Wyn and Theo waited another three days to see if my Blood Memories would fade. Wyn’s dour disposition lightened a little by Day Ten. My Blood Memories hadn’t faded at all. His theory was correct: My photographic memory not only retained my Blood Memories, but my mind also perfectly balanced Blood Memories with my own memories.
Theo was glad when Wyn let us hunt again. He was ready for someone else’s memories in his mind. The week before, he had wanted to drink the blood of a cook. This week he had other plans. His plans would surprise me. He was always surprising me.
Wyn was curious to see how two different Blood Memories would coexist in me. He theorized that, in the same way my mind neatly catalogues all my photographic memories, it would also neatly catalogue all my Blood Memories. His null hypothesis had been: Retaining Blood Memories beyond a week will give her a mental breakdown. Prepare a room at Bedlam . Thankfully his null hypothesis was disproven. It was balderdash. Mostly.
Wyn encouraged us to feed outside the mansion. “No blood in the house.” I made a game of it, tapping Theo’s shoulder. Tag. He was it. I was becoming more like Theo by the minute. He laughed. Then he chased me from the mansion. I loved being chased by him.
We ran faster than I’d ever run before – down the mountain – past the desert valley – west toward the setting sun. Theo outran me. He tapped me on the shoulder. Now I was “It”. I chased him. I was always chasing him.
He led me all the way to Los Angeles. We ran through the city to the Pacific Ocean. The whole run took less than half an hour. We stood on the shore of the sea. Barefoot. Panting. Toes in the sand. Cold salt water rushing all around our ankles. The setting sun slowly sank into the sea. The sky was orange and red. Theo took me to the amusement park on the Santa Monica Pier. He bought himself cotton candy. He used to love cotton candy. He bought me a soft pretzel. I still love soft pretzels. But that