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right, and I want it to be perfect.
When Amy comes into the kitchen, Maddy yells, “Surprise!”
Interrupting her own yawn, she gazes at Maddy with a befuddled look on her face.
“Where’s Jack?” she says.
I take a step back. “Hey there, little lady. A mighty fine morning to you. Sleep well?”
She seems startled by my presence, as if she didn’t expect me to stand in the kitchen.
I wink at her. “Would Madame be interested in some breakfast?” I say in a fake French accent, swaying the pan back and forth.
Clenching her arms together, she leans against the door and looks down at the floor. Oh god, what did I do? I hope it’s not because I was a fucking monster last night, with my crying, screaming, hurting her, and … fucking her.
Shivers run down my spine just thinking about what I did. What we did. Is she okay? I was partly drunk, and as I realize this now I feel pathetic and weak. How the fuck dare I make love to a girl intoxicated.
I let the pan drop back on the stove , and it makes a clattering sound. She looks up at me, and I know I’ve caught her attention with that little act.
“Maddy, Amy and I need to have a chat. Why don’t you eat your breakfast? We’ll be right back.”
I walk to Amy and put my hand on her back, but she seems to cower underneath my touch. Fuck no. Is she afraid of me? Does she think I will hurt her again?
I nudge her to the hallway, well out of reach from Maddy’s ears. I grab both her hands and bring them to my lips. “I’m sorry for everything I did to you. I will never hurt you again, I promise.”
“Jack …” she says.
“No, no, let me do this. I need to say it to you. We made love. And I’m sorry if I did anything against you will. I never meant to make you feel shitty.”
She sighs. “I know …”
I put my hand on her shoulder, trying to get her to look at me, but she avoids my eyes. “Amy … I know I was drinking, and it was wrong. I hit you in my sleep, which was even worse.” I grab her chin and lift it, forcing her to look me in the eye as I speak the truth. “But I held you in my arms, tasted you, made love to you, and damn it I enjoyed it. I don’t regret a thing about us.”
She smiles, but still looks unhappy. Her eyes are getting wet , and it defeats the purpose of my confessional speech entirely. Shit.
“ I don’t regret it either, and I enjoyed every part of it. Still do.”
“Okay.”Phew. Glad that’s not it then.
“It’s just that I don’t know what to do. I don’t really belong here.”
Her words are like a dagger to the heart. Even though I knew she’d eventually leave, I never thought it’d be so soon.
“Yeah, you do. I need you,” I say.
“I need us as well. But I need other things, too. I miss my home. I miss my friends. I miss my … music.” She sighs. “I have no career, no friend, and no boyfriend. What am I supposed to do with myself? It feels like I’m standing still in time right now.”
I put my arm around her and hold her tight. “ I wish I knew how to help you.”
“Well … I’ve been thinking about it and … I want to meet up with Nicole.”
I nudge her forward and look her straight in the eye. “Are you sure?”
She nods. “It’s the only way I can ever make sure if this band thing will still be possible or not. If I can have my friend back. Maybe then my life won’t feel like such a mess right now.” She grabs her phone from her pocket and st ares at the numbers as though she’s gathering the courage to press them.
“Is this really what you want?” I ask. “Considering the pain she’s put you through.”
“Well, it wasn’t exactly her fault. Mostly Ronnie’s. He just lunged at her. I saw her slap him. I just couldn’t get the image of them kissing out of my head. Now that I’ve had some time to think about it, I think I might be able to forgive her. After all, she wasn’t exactly happy with Ronnie’s kiss. I might’ve been a little rough on her, too. She must be
When Amy comes into the kitchen, Maddy yells, “Surprise!”
Interrupting her own yawn, she gazes at Maddy with a befuddled look on her face.
“Where’s Jack?” she says.
I take a step back. “Hey there, little lady. A mighty fine morning to you. Sleep well?”
She seems startled by my presence, as if she didn’t expect me to stand in the kitchen.
I wink at her. “Would Madame be interested in some breakfast?” I say in a fake French accent, swaying the pan back and forth.
Clenching her arms together, she leans against the door and looks down at the floor. Oh god, what did I do? I hope it’s not because I was a fucking monster last night, with my crying, screaming, hurting her, and … fucking her.
Shivers run down my spine just thinking about what I did. What we did. Is she okay? I was partly drunk, and as I realize this now I feel pathetic and weak. How the fuck dare I make love to a girl intoxicated.
I let the pan drop back on the stove , and it makes a clattering sound. She looks up at me, and I know I’ve caught her attention with that little act.
“Maddy, Amy and I need to have a chat. Why don’t you eat your breakfast? We’ll be right back.”
I walk to Amy and put my hand on her back, but she seems to cower underneath my touch. Fuck no. Is she afraid of me? Does she think I will hurt her again?
I nudge her to the hallway, well out of reach from Maddy’s ears. I grab both her hands and bring them to my lips. “I’m sorry for everything I did to you. I will never hurt you again, I promise.”
“Jack …” she says.
“No, no, let me do this. I need to say it to you. We made love. And I’m sorry if I did anything against you will. I never meant to make you feel shitty.”
She sighs. “I know …”
I put my hand on her shoulder, trying to get her to look at me, but she avoids my eyes. “Amy … I know I was drinking, and it was wrong. I hit you in my sleep, which was even worse.” I grab her chin and lift it, forcing her to look me in the eye as I speak the truth. “But I held you in my arms, tasted you, made love to you, and damn it I enjoyed it. I don’t regret a thing about us.”
She smiles, but still looks unhappy. Her eyes are getting wet , and it defeats the purpose of my confessional speech entirely. Shit.
“ I don’t regret it either, and I enjoyed every part of it. Still do.”
“Okay.”Phew. Glad that’s not it then.
“It’s just that I don’t know what to do. I don’t really belong here.”
Her words are like a dagger to the heart. Even though I knew she’d eventually leave, I never thought it’d be so soon.
“Yeah, you do. I need you,” I say.
“I need us as well. But I need other things, too. I miss my home. I miss my friends. I miss my … music.” She sighs. “I have no career, no friend, and no boyfriend. What am I supposed to do with myself? It feels like I’m standing still in time right now.”
I put my arm around her and hold her tight. “ I wish I knew how to help you.”
“Well … I’ve been thinking about it and … I want to meet up with Nicole.”
I nudge her forward and look her straight in the eye. “Are you sure?”
She nods. “It’s the only way I can ever make sure if this band thing will still be possible or not. If I can have my friend back. Maybe then my life won’t feel like such a mess right now.” She grabs her phone from her pocket and st ares at the numbers as though she’s gathering the courage to press them.
“Is this really what you want?” I ask. “Considering the pain she’s put you through.”
“Well, it wasn’t exactly her fault. Mostly Ronnie’s. He just lunged at her. I saw her slap him. I just couldn’t get the image of them kissing out of my head. Now that I’ve had some time to think about it, I think I might be able to forgive her. After all, she wasn’t exactly happy with Ronnie’s kiss. I might’ve been a little rough on her, too. She must be
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