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privacy?”
    She puts her hands on my shoulders and squeezes. “Sorry. Of course you can. I’ll crash on the couch in the den.” She grins. “So you can take all the time you need.”
    After she’s gone, I sit for a while just watching the screen saver, a goofy one with Santa’s reindeer flying around the screen. I haven’t checked my e-mail since I sent Ethan that awful note saying I wanted to end it. Not so long ago, I guess, but it feels like forever.
    My heart is beating so fast.
    Finally I punch in my password, and there in my inbox is a message from Ethan.
    Subject: Not without a fight
.
    I open his message and read it
    derek. i know u said u didn’t want to
continue this but i can’t accept that
not without some explanation. not
without a fight.
everything was great until i said i
was coming out to Ontario. so tell me
what’s wrong. please.
u know what i think? i think ur scared
about meeting in person. u think i’m
not? it scares the hell out of me.
i’m scared u won’t like me as much
in person, i’m scared i won’t know
what to say, i’m scared i won’t turn u
on. i’m scared u will think i’m a lousy
kisser. seriously. i’ve actually worried
about that.
but now i’m just scared i’ll never get
a chance to find out.
    I read it again and again and again. I take a deep breath.
    Then I start typing.