Fisher traits really are, how they worm their way into the soundest beam. Besides, Ursula knows Katie has never envied her Michael. If Fish is the darker brother, Katie has no taste for the light. Through all the years, Katie has grown taut, a little brittle; there are pocks in her existence about which she volunteers no feelings (a true Fisher, if only by marriage), and she invites no questions. She has always seemed, at even the worst moments, the right match for Fish. And no one can deny the depth of her loyalty. Didnât it cost her a child?
14
âKatie, itâs me,â Ursula says. âI was surprised to hear from you so early.â
âSorry. I know morning isnât your best time. But Ursula, Iâve got myself in a messââ
âWhatâs wrong?â
âFish. But you knew that.â
âFish,â Ursula repeats. She would like to ask Katie if other things ever fail her. If everything does.
âIâm going through with it. For the first time in my adult life I feel like Iâm getting it together. I donât think I can do it with Fish. I canât drag the weight any longer.â
âI havenât got much time, Katie. Could you call me tonight?â Ursula knows it is terrible to pull away, knows she ought to respond to the message in Katieâs plaint, but she doesnât want to hear it. And she is pressed for time.
âNo, listen. Itâs important. My lawyer has been pushing me. She says if I donât let them serve Fish the papers, she is washing her hands of me and I can kiss the four hundred Iâve paid her goodbye. She says it has to happen. Shit, Ursula, she thinks sheâs my fucking shrink. My mommy.â
âI didnât realize it was that far along.â
âOh Ursula, I told you. You know I did.â
âOkay.â
âOnly not today! I told them today was okay, I just wanted to get it over with, and I told them heâs over there, and to get there early, before he goes off, but I forgot about Saturday.â
âOh God.â The anniversary party in the River Cove Grange. Fish will be a terrific guest. His parents celebrate fifty years of contract, and he greets the end of his own. What was it, Ursula wonders fleetingly, that he and Katie agreed to do?
âHeâll go crazy. It could wreck things. What was I thinking? Iâve got these little papers all over the place. Reminders. Get the starter looked at. Get the strap fixed on my sandal. Take Geneva to shop for napkins. Napkins. Ursula, could you get them? I donât want to drive. My car is acting up. And itâs like only half my brain is in gear. Sometimes I wish Fish hadââ
âWhat do I say? Katie? When they come?â
âTell them to come back Monday. Say heâs gone for the rest of the week. Monday is soon enough! Ursula. I still love him. Thatâs not what this is about.â
âIâll get the napkins. I donât see why Geneva has to go at all. What about you? Are you going to be okay?â
Katie groaned. âI donât know. I wonât know till itâs over.â
Ursula goes upstairs to dress. A strange sound is coming from the bathroom. Not quite a groan. Something more petulant.
âJuliette, is that you?â Ursula taps at the door. When there is no answer, Ursula opens the door and sticks her head in. Juliette is standing in front of the mirror with her arms crossed over her breasts, her hands drooping off her shoulders. Seeing her mother in the mirror, she whirls and glares.
âI hate them!â
âWhat, baby? What is it?â
Juliette throws her arms out dramatically, baring the expanse of her white throat and the pink leotard she is wearing. She is a lovely girl. âTheyâre getting BIGGER!â she says, horror in her voice.
It takes a moment for Ursula to realize that Juliette is speaking of her breasts. She has never progressed much beyond a pubescent
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