away from. I closed my eyes. Miahâd never understood how two people could stop loving each other and Iâd never known how to explain.
After a while of watching Nelia, I took a deep breath, folded the paper under my arm, got up from my stoop and crossed the street.
How many years had it been since Iâd crossed that streetâthree, four, nine? Even after Miah died, I still didnât go back into that house. Iâd offered to help clean out his room, but Nelia had said no, said sheâd take care of it. Now here were my feet, one stepping in front of the other, and me moving closer and closer to Neliaâs stoop.
The block is silent as a stone. It feels like somebody far away is watching. And waiting to see what happens.
Ellie
EARLY SATURDAY MORNING, MARION SHAKES ME AWAKE. MY throat hurts and Iâm not sure where I am.
âYou were screaming,â she says.
I blink, look around my room.
âSomeone shot Miah,â I whisper, pressing my hand to my throat. âI dreamed someone shot Miah.â
Marion stares at me and shakes her head. She leaves and a few minutes later, sheâs back, pressing a warm cloth to my forehead.
âI dreamed . . .â
âShhhh, Elisha,â she whispers. âMiahâs gone, honey.â
I lay back on the bed and close my eyes. âMiahâs gone,â I whisper, sinking back into sleep.
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When I came downstairs later, I was surprised to find my father sitting at the kitchen table. The apartment smelled like cinnamon, apples and coffee. Marion gave me a long look, then put a glass of juice on the table in front of me.
âWhat are you doing home?â I asked my father. He was usually at the hospital on Saturdays. Sundays were our day together.
âYour mother tells me you had another bad dream,â my father said. He looked tired, his blue eyes were rimmed and puffy. My sisters and brother call me âthe accidentâ because I was born ten years after the last one. My parents arenât young. Last year, we celebrated my motherâs fifty-seventh birthday.
I looked at Marion. âAnd?â
âAnd weâre worried,â she said. âItâs been almost a year now, Elisha.â
âItâs been eleven months, Marion. â
âDonât call your mother âMarion,â El.â
I pushed the juice away from me. âWhen she starts calling me âEllie,â Iâll start calling her âMomâââ
âYour name is Elisha.â Marion turned back to the stove and stirred something. After a moment, she set a bowl of apple compote on the table, then took a stack of pancakes from the oven.
I got up and poured myself some coffee.
âWeâre just concerned,â my father said. âYou donât participate in schoolââ
âI get straight Aâs.â I tried to keep my voice even.
âYou donât do any activities, just study, study, study,â Marion said. She sat across from me and put two pancakes on a plate. âHere.â
âNot hungry.â
My father looked at me and I rolled my eyes and took the plate from Marion.
âNo sports, no clubs, no friends . . . ,â Marion said, counting off on her fingers. âJust bad dreams and sadness. Just you in your room, doing I donât know what. . . .â
â Studying . Iâm studying in my room. And I do other stuff besides hang out upstairs.â
âLike what?â Marion and my father looked at me. âWhere are your friends? Girls your age are supposed to have lots of girlfriends hanging around and calling. Nobody ever calls here for you. When the other kids were home, the phone was constantlyââ
âWell, Iâm not the other kids . You should have stopped when you were ahead if you wanted the other kids .â
âWe were thinking,â my father said, âthat maybe you want to talk to somebodyââ
I started to say
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