birds have their own voices too .
âSwallows come back,â Bruce said.
Her nails were white on the rung.
âYear after year, theyâll just keep returning.â
She wanted nothing more than that they might just remain talking, back against front.
âProblem is,â Bruce continued, âbirds donât come back if they smell people. Itâs a safety thing, I guess. It wouldnât have mattered, you see. Except for now weâve gone and put our smell up here. Accident of course, but the mother bird will sense it. She might abandon the nest once she gets a whiff of us.â
All of a sudden Lauraâs knees turned to rubber. She had to hook her arm around the rung and hug it in. âIâm getting down,â she said. âDad, weâve got to get down.â
But Bruceâs body blocked the way. âNo point worrying now, love,â he said gently, touching her hair. âDamage done. If we leave these birds here, chances are the motherâll desert them. âCourse,â he went on more cheerfully, âswallows arenât native. No point worrying ourselves too much, I suppose.â
That night, Laura lay in the dark listening to the cheeps of four blind swallow chicks. Bruce had said to feed them breadcrumbs soaked in milk. But no matter how much soggy bread she dropped into their open mouths, it never seemed to be enough. They looked like tiny plucked chickens, their skin so thin and translucent she could just about make out the shape of their hearts through their chests. Laura had set up the straw-lined shoebox in which they now floundered, beaks upturned, gaping.
Vik called across their darkened room, âYou awake?â
âNo.â
âBut, Lor, what was that song Mutti used to sing us?â Vik hummed the first few lines.
âLeave it, alright? Youâre so annoying.â Laura spoke thickly, breathing through her mouth. She put a hand to the corner of her pillow, squeezing. The birds called out.
âAre you â are you crying?â Vik said. âWhatâs wrong?â
âShut up. I said leave it.â Laura rolled away. The birds rustled in their box. Their eyes were still sealed closed. They had no way of knowing where they were; she hoped that they believed themselves to be at home. She tried for a moment to conjure her motherâs face, to see Kath standing in the room. But all she could see was the outline of a woman. The harder she tried, the darker became the shadows obscuring her motherâs face.
Kathâs notes had kept coming, though Laura resisted the urge to read what her mother wrote too closely. Each Liebe felt like a poisonous little dart sent to hurt her. After she discovered that the envelopes contained cash, she had made sure to open them carefully, burning the rest of the evidence. Deja vu, like fatigue, overcame her every time she opened the door of the oven and thrust a letter in.
Watching Kathâs handwriting go up, Laura understood how her life would unfold: caged by mail. She would receive Kathâs letters, would burn them. Nothing would ever change.
But the notes had grown shorter, drying up. Six months in, they had already become one-liners. Kath made dutiful contact, but when she got no response, it seemed to suit. It suited Laura too, keeping her secret.
As the notes shrivelled, the cash continued to arrive. It hurt Laura to count it, knowing how badly they needed each dollar. Bruce trusted her now to buy groceries and pay bills from the allowance he had once supplied to Kath, but money was tight. It wasnât easy to spend extra without raising suspicion, not in a district mortgaged up the wazoo. When Vik needed a new winter coat, Laura pulled a woollen jumper from her own drawer, knowing full well that there was enough of Kathâs money saved to dress them both in shop-bought clothes. But then the tank started leaking, the toilet backed up, the tyres on the ute grew bald. Laura
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