and make it real if I concentrated for a decade or two, at least if all those ghost movies were telling the truth. But I don't want to freak you out. "Mal?" I reach out and slink back when you dead eye the shower curtain, kicking it out of the way as you turn the water on. It is hot and loud. The mirror is going to fog up even with the fan set to loud and annoying as all hell. "So what do you think of the new iPhone? I would totally get one if I weren't dead and all." I try to chuckle but can't find the sound. Mal steps over the tub and right away I follow. This makes me worse somehow I know. Standing behind him when he tugs the shower curtain closed. Water hits my clothes, and I instantly feel relief when I am instantly soaked. I love knowing that I can still feel. That the water can still touch me. I don't know how that possible but I don't care right now. Mal turns around, fidgeting, unsure of himself and again I look south. His ass is perfectly hardened and small. The back of his legs perfectly toned, his feet are huge. God damn, Mal. He dips his head under the hot waterfall and braces his arms against out the shower wall. I am so entranced by his muscles. He's like a god; a beautifully handsome soul that should never be in this much pain let alone any pain at all. Suddenly it feels like there is too much space between or souls and yet not enough space at all. Not even close. Before I can think my next move through I reach out, breathing in water nice and shallow as my fingertips grace the back of his skull. He shudders, but I know that's because of something besides what I'm doing right now. Something about the water or something else. Something I don’t even know about. Something new. "You can't feel this can you?" My fingers drop down. Touching the back of his neck. His shoulders. I trace the tip of my nail down his spine, stepping back a step or two because I’m overwhelmed. I have my hands all over him now. I am a real creepy perverted and horny ghost. Don't judge me! How dare you! Mal growls and suddenly my own legs almost knock me down. He turns around. His gaze is shooting for mine like an arrow. He has me in his strong hold, and suddenly I know that he can feel me because I can feel him too. My hands are against his chest, and his hands and arms keep me in front of him. Pushing me back away the splash soaked shower wall. His nose touches my nose. Our lips are so close. "Mal?" I say, but his face doesn't shift at all with the sound. I try again. "Mal?" My voice is choked. His arms cage me in like an animal. His green eyes are wild. Mal breathes in and breathes out. His entire body is vibrating my own before his arms drop, and he simply turns around. His shoulders are tense, and my body is full of fuel. Right away I know. “You felt that too, didn’t you?”
I Feel You - Mal
A spike of pain runs my heartbeat dull. I stand in the shower for a moment or two, back against the waterfall. I felt Flo. Felt her cold hands against my chest. Finger nails are digging in to my flesh, seeking out my bones. I saw her, and I don't know if it was in my memory or not at all. Her skin was breathing earth. Like dirt and summer and fall. I could almost taste her sweet mouth before my mind started to backpedal on itself. That wasn't possible. I couldn't feel Flo. That wasn't real. Shaking my head and looking down I step out of the shower and reach for a damp towel. I