there.
What surprises me is how Ma reacts to my answer.
She smiles a real smile.
SEEING BEAUTIFUL
In Jimâs office,
I see a chair covered with a white sheet.
âTa-da!â he cries as he whips it off,
revealing a nearly lifelike limb.
âIs your new limb to your liking, maâam?â
My skin tone matches the limbâs hue.
I stroke it. Something soft as flesh
fills the space between the metal skeleton and rubber skin.
I lift the limb.
Itâs lighter than my trial limb.
I try it on.
When theyâre side by side and compared closely,
my feet do look different. But no audience
could tell them apart if they saw me from a distanceâonstage.
I press down on the toe.
When I ease off, I feel a springiness to the foot,
a push, giving me a faint pulse of energy back.
Almost a response.
âI love it!â
Jim grins. âAmazing, huh? That footâs durable, too.
Should last a couple of years. Wonât wear out too quickly.â
âWear out?â
âDonât look so worried, kiddo.
The project will provide replacements.
Your foot will wear out
the way your shoes wear out.
No foot lasts a lifetime.â
Except the ones weâre born with.
Usually.
âAnything I canât do with this leg?â
I want him to say one word:
No.
Jim launches into a list.
â. . . canât wear high heels . . .
. . . can tiptoe
only
if knees are bent . . .
. . . canât flex and point the foot . . .
but youâll be able to dance Bharatanatyam.
A below-knee amputee
with faith in herself
is two-legged, not one-legged,
as far as Iâm concerned.
âNow, maâam, would you try out a few dance poses, please?
I want to make sure the fitâs perfect.â
Assuming the basic half-sitting pose
âfeet splayed, knees out to the sides,
legs bent like the edges of a diamondâ
I move my feet one at a time, slowly,
then at second speed,
then speeding up to third and fastest speed.
âBeautiful,â Jim says.
My heart races.
The naked admiration in his voice
makes me feel grown up.
But then Jim
squats and taps
my unfeeling limb.
âBeautiful,â he repeats. âBeautiful engineering,
beautiful design,
if I do say so myself.â
BOULDER
Twice the age and size
of every other beginner in Govindaâs classroom,
I feel as out of place as a boulder
brought down by the Ganga glacier
from the heights of the Himalayas
and abandoned on the river plain.
By the back wall of the sun-drenched classroom,
I skulk.
But I canât hide how I tower
over the rest of my classmates.
A little girl looks up at me. âYouâre so big!
Whyâre you in this class?â
While I wonder how to react,
Govinda states matter-of-factly
that I lost a leg in an accident,
that I have a new one Iâm learning to dance with.
âBut weâre not here to chatter, children.
Weâre here to learn Bharatanatyam. Right?â he says.
âRight!â Their attention shifts back to him.
âWe begin every dance session with a prayer,â Govinda says.
Uday annaâs class never began or ended with prayers.
âAangikam bhuvanam yasya; Vaachikam sarvavaangmayam;
Aahaaryam Chandrathaaraadhi;
Tham Namah Saathvikam Shivam.â
He who resides within every being in the universe;
who speaks the universal language;
whose ornaments are heavenly spheres;
Him we worship,
Shiva, the serene one.
Next, Govinda demonstrates
the dancerâs apology to Mother Earth.
With ease,
the rest of the class imitates his movements.
Palms on the wall for support,
I manage to follow them,
my pose imperfect, but not too noticeably different.
We begin the first exercise, hands on hips,
knees bent, feet to the sides,
raising each foot off the ground and bringing it down,
thaiya thai, thaiya thai.
Govindaâs voice fills the room.
âEmpty yourselves of
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