face.
What were they thinking? What did they believe about their mother?
Her arms were emptyâthere was nothing to hold. Her head spun and her heart pounded.
Rima would be hungry. Zeba wished she could have nursed her once more before sheâd been taken away.
Zeba felt her nipples sting. In her first week at Chil Mahtab, sheâd stuffed her bra with balled tissues to catch the milk-tears her breasts kept leaking. Her chest had burned and ached until the milk flow dried up.
The girls.
Basir will take care of them. He always does.
It was hard to think of her children and even harder not to. It was hard to block out a cell of women and their inane crimes.
âYour absolute favorite Ahmad Zahir songâwhat is it?â Latifa asked with the seriousness of a prosecutor.
âThatâs an easy one.â Nafisa laughed. She sang two lines of the song with eyes closed, her upper body swaying in rhythm. â The taste of your lips lingers on mine, the waves of your passion make my heartbeat sublime. â
âYou shameless thing!â Latifa howled. âMezhgan, your turn.â
âI donât really know his songs that well,â she mumbled. She was not the type of girl to answer any question the first time it was asked, believing that would make her seem too outspoken.
âLiar,â Nafisa teased. âWhat did you do in all that time you spent with your boyfriend? He must have sung some love songs to you. How else could he have sweet-talked his way under your dress?â
Mezhgan groaned. She was used to Nafisaâs teasing by now.
âMy father used to sing those songs,â Mezhgan said. Her fatherwas a generation closer to the long-dead pop singer, a man who had set a whole country of broken hearts to song. âI guess I do remember a few of them.â
âLetâs hear it,â Latifa said, clapping.
Mezhganâs voice was high and thin, a shallow echo against the cell walls. âIf this is love that burns within, surely it must be a sin . . . elaaahi elaahahi!â
âWell done, you harlot!â Nafisa cheered.
âIâve got one for both of you,â Latifa announced, clearing her throat as she launched into the verse. âWatch out, my heart, because I have fallen; a gift of heartache has come calling.â
âYouâre just terrible, Latifa,â Nafisa whined. âWait until you fall in love. You wonât be so pessimistic about it then.â
âYes, every night I pray that God curses me with the same affliction you both have.â
âAt least it gives us hope of getting out of here. A proper marriage and we can appeal to the judge for mercy.â
Mezhgan felt pity for Latifa.
âIâm sure thereâs a way for Latifa to appeal too. You havenât even tried. Maybe you should ask for a lawyer. Why did you refuse one anyway?â
âBecause if they sent me back to my family Iâd be back here in days charged with murder. Iâm doing them a favor by refusing.â
Zeba was careful not to react, and the moment passed without her cellmates turning the conversation to her.
Love. Marriage. Freedom.
Zebaâs mind floated between melancholy and angry thoughts, a host of colors. A soft melody drifted through the cell, filling the quiet. It was Zebaâs voice.
âAlone and free of angst and sorrow
Iâve bled enough for today and tomorrow
Now it is time for my bud to bloom
Iâm a sparrow in love with solitude
All my secrets contained within me
I sing aloudâIâm alone, finally!â
The women howled with delight to hear their cellmateâs voice lift in song. They would only realize later the distinct lack of romance in her lyrics and the peculiar mirth with which Zeba sang them.
CHAPTER 7
ZEBA LEANED HER HEAD AGAINST THE COLD WALL, CHIPS OF paint lifting from the corners and edges. She picked at the flakes with the insouciance of someone destroying a thing already
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