nose and turns over and thatâs how I know heâs not dead.â
âThat sounds very scientific.â
âSister Benita said I was silly when I did things like that. She said I was supposed to trust God. She said if I really loved God, then I would trust Him. But that doesnât feel right. Can you love someone but not trust them, Miquel?â
Miquel was silent for a moment. âYes. I think you can love someone but not trust him, or her.â
Diago wondered if Miquel was thinking of Candela. He looked down at Rafaelâs drawing of the winged sun. The child wasnât far from the truth. The angelâs presence lingered over their every waking moment in the form of Rafael. Yet Miquel had not once complained about having the boy in their lives. Diago held the picture against his chest. Through the paper, he felt the outline of his wedding band beneath his shirt. He touched the chain of his necklace and fished the ring to his finger.
âI donât understand,â said Rafael.
âWell . . .ââÂthe knife slowedâÂâ . . . think of it like this: love is a gift thatâs given. Trust is a coin thatâs earned.â The chopping sounds stopped altogether. âDo you know how to peel garlic?â
âYes!â The chair scraped the floor. âThen can I check on Papa again?â
âOnly if you promise not to wake him.â
âI promise.â
They hummed a tune together as they worked.
Unbidden, the memory of Alvaro resurfaced. Diago, my son, help me . . . help. . .
Diago closed his eyes and tried to muster any recollection of his fatherâÂa touch, a scent, a wordâÂbut nothing came immediately to his mind. He conjured the image of Alvaroâs soul wrapped in Molochâs magic, and contemplated the shape of Alvaroâs face. From the farthest reaches of his first memories, Diago recalled a man with similar features. He had carried Diago into his auntâs home and left him there with a promise that he would return.
But he never did. He never came back. And Diago had shut the pain of that first betrayal deep within his soul, never to be examined . . . until today.
But why? How could he have deserted me if he truly loved me? Diago tried to imagine leaving Rafael with strangers. Although the child had been in Diagoâs life for only a few weeks, he couldnât bear to abandon him so heartlessly.
What reason did Alvaro have? During Diagoâs brief meeting with his father, Alvaro claimed he left because Diago had forgotten how to love, but was that true? If Diago lacked the ability to love, he wouldnât have cared if Alvaro abandoned him. But I did. I loved Alvaro. His betrayal was so traumatic I buried it.
Diago opened his eyes. Alvaroâs statements didnât fit. He claimed heâd remained by my side as long as he could, but how old was I when he left me with my aunt? Four? Five? If a father couldnât bear to watch his son go through another life in sorrow, did he simply abandon him before he knew whether or not the child could change?
Was Alvaro so selfish and callous?
On the other hand, he had helped Diago deceive Moloch, had given his life so they could flee. Why would he help me save Rafael if he didnât care?
Diago pressed his wedding band to his lips. None of it made sense. The two aspects of his fatherâÂthe cold Nefil who abandoned his son, and the repentant one who saved his grandsonâÂdidnât mesh. An integral piece was missing from the puzzle, leaving Alvaro and his motives tantalizingly out of focus.
Miquel crossed the kitchen and took from the cupboard two glasses and a bottle of homemade wine. He glanced into the front room where Diago sat. âLook who is up.â
Rafaelâs chair scraped again.
âDonâtââÂMiquel pointed his finger in Rafaelâs direction just as a thud shook the floorâÂ
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