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wanted.”
    “Yeah, I could
never imagine you and him together,” Rand says with a
thoughtful smile.
    I give a small laugh
in agreement, but he won’t
be smiling for much longer. “One day, Samuel sent word to me
from his assistant that he was having a business dinner at the house
and wanted me to join him. I thought it was awesome. Boredom was
getting to me. I thought I could at least be a wife to Samuel in some
ways by letting him show me off to people he wanted to impress.”
    “I get the
feeling this is going somewhere I’m not going to like,”
Rand says hesitantly. He knows it’s bad if I have nightmares
about Samuel, and it is bad. Best to rip the band-aid off and all.
    “When I walked
into the dining room that night, it became clear pretty quickly that
I was what was being served on the menu. There were five of them…
all business associates, I think. I heard bits and pieces of
conversation while they were all fucking me that led me to believe
that. My husband conducted business right there in the dining room
while those men took turns with me. He watched from the end of the
table and egged them on, encouraging them to do whatever they wanted
to me.”
    “Son of a
fucking bitch,” Rand growls as he rears upward. My hand
immediately goes to his shoulder, and I push him back down.
    “You need to
listen so I can get this all out,” I urge him gently.
    “That fucking
bastard prostituted his own wife out as a business incentive?”
he demands furiously.
    “He
prostituted me out to anyone he wanted a favor from,”
I clarify, and his eyes go darker with rage. “He once didn’t
have cash on hand to tip a driver he hired to take us to the airport,
so he had me suck the driver’s dick in payment.”
    “What the
fuck?” he hisses and again tries to sit up in the bed. I try to
hold him back, but he’s stronger. Besides, I don’t think
this conversation lends itself to snuggling so we both come up into
sitting positions. He turns to me and braces himself with one arm on
the mattress. His other reaches out, touching the tips of his fingers
to my jaw as he whispers. “I’m so sorry, Cat. No man
should ever do that a woman, much less his wife.”
    I give a little
shrug and try to make light of it. “It
didn’t happen all the time. I tried to reason to myself that it
was what I needed to do for this ‘so-called’ better life
I wanted.”
    Rand’s
fingers slide from my jaw, past my ear, and then curve around the
back of my neck. He pulls me a little closer to him and looks at me
intently. “The Silo… that wasn’t something you
wanted, was it?”
    And yes…
Rand doesn’t know me all that well, but he does get me. “The
Silo is complicated for me, but no… joining was all Samuel’s
idea. Like I said, he didn’t let his friends and associates
have me all that often, and what I came to quickly realize was that
Samuel got off on watching me debased. Sure… it garnered him
favor with his friends, but really… he gave me to those men
because he liked watching me suffer.”
    “The Silo…
you mostly did gang bangs,” Rand mutters as his gaze drifts a
bit to the side in contemplation. “We all thought… I
mean… we just assumed that was your thing. You liked multiple
guys. But it was Samuel who insisted on it.”
    “Yes,” I
say simply.
    His eyes come back
to me filled with guilt. “I’m sorry,” he whispers
hoarsely. “I wouldn’t have… I don’t think
anyone there would have done that to you if we knew you didn’t
like it.”
    I can’t
stand to see him feel guilt over something he had absolutely no
knowledge of, so I need to make sure he understands that nothing
about me is simple. “Rand… you couldn’t have
known. No one did. And like I said… it’s complicated.
There was a part of me, deep down inside, that sometimes liked what
was being done to me. Sometimes, I’d be getting drilled by one
man with another one waiting and I’d look at Samuel… and
rather than see that smug