I decide to be with you!
âBecause, as Iâve told you time and again, even after Iâm dead and gone and the worms have eaten my earth-body and youâre so old and deaf that you canât hear your own farts, Iâll still be here inside your heart and soul like una GARRRRRAPATA, a tick up a dogâs ass, scratching at you, clawing at you, giving you great discomfort, every time I see you or one of your offspring get lazy and allow the Devil to come near! Do you understand now? This is who I am, your ancestral TICK UP YOUR SPIRITUAL ASSHOLE FOR ALL ETERNITY! So you donât get lazy on me again,â she added. âGET YOUR SHIT FIRST!â
Salvador burst out laughing. What else could he do?
THE NEXT DAY , Salvador was down in Carlsbad, delivering whiskey, when his good friend Jerry Bill told him who the guy was whoâd brought the two men down from Los Angeles to try to take over his territory. Why, it was Tomas, a good friend of Salvadorâs, a man whoâd sat across the table from Salvador in many a poker game and then had had breakfast with him in the early hours of the morning.
And the two men that Tomas had invited down were no other than . . . the Filipino and the Italiano, the two guys whoâd cut Salvadorâs throat a few years back in Corona, leaving him for dead, and then theyâd also been the sons-of-a-bitches whoâd gotten Salvador arrested in Hanford, for gambling. Thatâs how heâd ended up spending time in the Tulare jail.
These two stool pigeon bastard -cabrones, Salvador was going to kill immediately, and he didnât give a good damn if they were amigos of the big boys out of Fresno, or not!
But then, that night as Salvador slept alone in Carlsbad in the little white house that heâd especially prepared for his honeymoon with Lupe, his mother, Doña Margarita, appeared to him in his dreams. â Mi hijito ,â said the old Indian woman, âI didnât raise you up all these years for you to now just go out and do your revenge like a stupid, typical man!
âYou must think deeper, mi hijito, much deeper than the wolf or the coyote, and come up with a plan as cunning as the little She-Fox herself, the Female Force who helps God reign the Heavens.â
And saying this, his old mother then turned into a little She-Fox in Salvadorâs dream, and whispered to him so quietly that his sleeping male-brain now thought that these were his very own thoughts.
âSleep, my child-darling, sleep,â whispered the little She-Fox, âand let all the wisdom of the ages come to you. Remember the story of how the little She-Fox fooled the big strong coyote when he was going to eat her babies. She took the big, hungry coyote down to the lagoon and convinced him that the reflection of the full Moon in the water was the biggest, most delicious cheese in all the world. Greed did all the rest, mi hijito. The coyote drank the water, wanting to empty the lagoon so he could get to the cheese, and he choked to death. Remember, greed can be a personâs best friend when the other has it and you donât.â
âYes, mama ,â said Salvador to the She-Fox in his dream, âI remember that story well, but Iâm a man, mama, so I donât know what to do, except kill these two cabrón -bastards!â
âThen sleep some more, mi hijito ,ââ said his old Indian mother to him in his dream, âand believe me, youâll soon come up with a plan so fantastic that it will give you a greater reputation than just the killing of two mere mortals. And also remember the formidable powers of the mother pig, the only farm animal capable of returning to the wild and surviving, because she never lost her wild instincts. And it is within our wild instincts that lies the key to our soul.
âDream, mi hijito, dream, and know that our soul is our doorway to God. Coo-coo rrroo-coo coooooo, dijo la Paloma! â
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