the covers. âWhat did you bring me?â
âChocolate chocolate chip or toffee swirl?â she said, taking ice cream out of a bag. Anytime she punished me, which wasnât often, she always showed up a few hours later with ice cream. Two pints, one conscience, cleared.
âChocolate,â I said. âI think Iâm supposed to be giving you the silent treatment, though.â
âAnd you will,â she said, handing me a pint. âItâs hard to talk with ice cream in your mouth. Scoot over.â
Mom climbed into bed with me like she had for the first few weeks after Dad left. Iâm sure it was supposed to be the other way aroundâme coming to herâbut she always beat me to it, curling up behind me. Jeans brushing pajama legs. Her sobs never as soft as she thought they were.
âYou told the principal you were a sleepwalker?â
We sat side by side, legs out, backs propped on pillows.
âIt seemed brilliant at the time,â I said. âI didnât think about having to get a doctorâs note. Or the fact they would eventually figure out your work number.â
Mom scooted closer so that her leg touched mine.
âQuite the elaborate plan,â she said. âYou must really like it here.â
âI do,â I said. And then I looked at her, really looked at her, for the first time all night. âDonât you?â
She licked ice cream off her spoon. âI like that you have a friend.â
âSo weâll figure it out?â
âFor now,â she said, her words like storm clouds, gathering. âThereâs one condition, though,â she said. âLie for your safety, if you have to, but donât lie to me.â
She had no idea those were one and the same. One mention of my shaman panda and the car would have been packed by morning, the three of us hundreds of miles away by noon.
âOkay,â I said. âBut I have a condition, too. I need you to tell me what was wrong with Dad.â
âNothing was wrong,â she said. âHe had an overactive imagination, just like you do. The facts havenât changed.â
âBut Iâve changed,â I said. âIâm older. Maybe Iâll hear things differently.â
âNot tonight,â Mom said. âI canât take any more pain right now.â
Neither could I, I thought. Pain was having a crush that would never happen. Pain was being broken and not knowing how to fix it.
âSo tell me something else,â I said. And even though I knew the story, I asked for it, anyway. âTell me how you and Dad met.â
Mom put the lid on her ice cream and set it, along with the spoon, on my nightstand. I was eating mine slowly, letting the chocolate chips melt on my tongue before spooning more in.
âWe met at NYU,â Mom said. She was using her dreamy voice. âYour dad was studying physics, I was studying modern dance, and he showed up at my class every day for a month, trying to join the troupe. Just to be close to me.â
âBut he didnât dance,â I said, which I knew. He had like a hundred left feet.
âBut he kept showing up,â Mom said. âAfter a while, the teacher was so enamored with him, she made him an understudy. He never performed, not once, but he didnât care.â
âBecause you were there,â I said, thinking about Drew. Wondering if heâd text before Monday, even if I couldnât read it.
âYes, but I ignored him,â Mom said. âThe difference was, your father never gave up. And after a few months of strawberry-ginseng-banana smoothies, I fell in love.â
âThat smoothie sounds like the
opposite
of love to me.â
âIt was the eighties,â Mom said, laughing. âWe all drank that stuff. Besides, things like that donât matter when youâre in love. Youâll see.â
I wondered if I was going to be seeing anytime soon. I handed
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