at the moment, we need to think in terms of treatment of any sort. Your immediate need, I feel, is for someone to talk to. Say twice a week. Shall we see how we get on?â He was wearing a different suit today, sombre tweed and a heather-mixture tie.
âAll right,â I said. âSo long as I can think of something to talk about.â
âOh, I donât think that will be too difficult.â He slyly uncapped his pen. âHowâs the weeping?â
I didnât want to disappoint him. âBetter, I think.â
âWeâll give you some tablets to pep you up a little. Children all well?â
âDinahâs got âflu or something.â
âDinah. Let me see, Dinah is the â¦â Again he raked, worried, down the list. âSheâs sixteen,â I said.
âAh, yes.â He was almost cosy today. âYou must have difficulty finding names for them all.â
âThatâs what everybody says. Itâs stupid. There are hundreds of names. My grandmother had fifteen children and each one of them had at least three names. That makes forty-five names if you work it out, but she didnât find it difficult.â
âYour fatherâs mother?â
âNo, my motherâs mother. Of course a lot of them died.â
âYou could hardly hope to keep fifteen children in those days.â
âBut you could now.â
âYes â¦â he said slowly; then, darting up at me, âHowâs Jake?â
âHeâs gone to North Africa.â
âIndeed? On location, I suppose.â
If he was trying to be a father to me, he was dreadfully succeeding.
âYes,â I said. âOn location.â
âNow why didnât you go too?â
âWell, theyâre living in tents ⦠you know ⦠he didnât think I would ⦠Anyway, I canât leave the children.â
âBut you have plenty of staff?â
âYes, but ⦠Anyway, I canât leave them.â
âI see.â
He sat back and looked at me gravely. Then, with a short sigh, he glanced down at my file. âYou have had no illnesses? Miscarriages, difficult confinements?â
âNo.â
âYou have never ⦠terminated a pregnancy?â
âOf course not. Why should I?â
âBut you werenât exactly ⦠well off before you married Jake? One would have thought that the financial burden â¦â
âLook,â I said, âit was easy. We always lived in the country, and most of the time it was the war. We ate cornflakes and eggs and carrots, things like that, because I didnât know how to cook anything else, so we were vegetarians. I donât mean we were vegetarians because we didnât believe in eating meat, I just didnât know how to
cook
meat. Well, we didnât need any clothes. My mother used to knit things for the children, but the boys and the girls all wore the same clothes because it was easy, and so did I. My second husband, thatâs Dinahâs father, bought dozens of sheets and white cups when we were married, so we were still using those when I married Jake.
What
financial burden?â
âWell, the school fees alone â¦â
âThere werenât any school fees. They went to the village school. We got free milk and free orange juice â that gummy stuff, we used to drink it with gin when some friend or someone brought some gin â and we never went out, except sometimes to the pictures. That cost ninepence. After the beginning we never had to buy cots or prams or nappies, anything like that. Itâs complete nonsense about this financial burden. It costs a good deal less to keep a child for two years, three years, than it does to have an abortion. Why? â Do you think I should have had abortions?â
He blinked several times, picked up his pen and put it down again. âOf course not,â he muttered valiantly. âOf course
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