better be special. No need to be shy about asking for that little extra shot.â
We toasted each other in the glow of candlelight while the place gradually filled with people in intimate conversation with the night. Fueled by the vodka I became sentimental, let my mind wander through the past, not unlike the TV shrink Dr. Phil, according to Mother. I needed to help her find a man.
âI suppose the only solution is to find a gigolo. The men here in Holland seem as uninteresting as the ones in Reykjavik. Like that doctor. Seems completely asexual.â
âYou canât expect the doctor to hit on you during your examination.â
âIs there something wrong with hoping that the few men who stray into my life make the tiniest of efforts?â
I had to admit that this lack of sexual harassment truly was a travesty, but she threw her hands up in frustration and asked me to give her a break.
ââSexual harassment.â Ach. Another term invented by your sanctimonious generation. No wonder weâre having a hard time picking up men, except for cold fish like Emma Gulla. She just orders them from catalogs.â
âIsnât she the one thatâs always so happy?â
âOh, Trooper, what do I know? Iâve just never been able to figure out love. Maybe itâs just for boring people. Do you think thatâs it? That love is just for boring and ugly people like Emma? Look at the two of us.â
We stared into the flickering night and called out to the melancholy, to the nostalgia that lived in the newly fallen darkness and the lights, in the crowds and the stars, in all these endless possibilities that didnât find their way to us, but planted us here, mother and son, each with a pint of special.
âWhen you think about it, Trooper, at the end of the dayâweâve at least always had fun. Now tell the bartender to turn off this noise and play some real dancing music. Soon Iâll be dead and have less time for dancing, but tonight we dance. On the tables and up into the ceiling, like this, until the lights go out. Weâll dance, my dearest Trooper. Just dance!â
Chapter 6
O n Monday morning the focus returned again to matters of life and death, Ukrain or no Ukrain.
âWhether to take up arms against the fall of Spring? And the world of Summerâor to suffer the frost?â Mother recited poetry between bites of bacon, along with quotations from The Iron Lady , the controversial play about Nazi nurse Herta Oberhauser; anything to divert her attention from the upcoming doctorâs visit. In her opinion she was going to suffer nothing less than a sadistic blitzkrieg by a professional torturer. Whenever I tried to discuss her treatment she would turn on me and ask me to leave her be; she needed peace and quiet to recall Hertaâs defense monologue. She would then go into detail about her erratic sleeping patterns, noises in the hallway that had woken her and how she had retreated onto the balcony with a glass of red wine around three in the morning. That had led her to open her bookâ Catherine the Great, a Biography âwhich turned out to contain some quite racy revelations of the Empressâs extensive debauchery.
âShe had her fun with poor Grigori for a few years, a perverse little youngster with a cock like a horse. When she got bored withhim she made him bring her new lovers. By the truckloadâimagine the luxury. There was something inherently wrong with her. The woman was insatiable.â
I didnât have much to say on the matter, but pointed out that we really needed to get up to our rooms; the doctor would arrive any minute.
âWhy do we have to do this? I find it terribly unfair to have to get all these shots on top of everything.â
âDonât worry about it. The doctor is so used to giving injections that you wonât feel a thing.â
âOh Iâll feel them! Itâs serious business
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