was a small price to pay for this priceless embrace.
It might have been twenty minutes before any of them were willing to let go of each other. The infected man at the back door had lost interest and finally shuffled away to find easier prey. Valerie got her breath under control, “Mama, I don’t think he’s handsome anymore.” “I think you’re right baby.” “Mama, what happened to him?” How do you answer that? What should she say? There were no parenting books for this kind of situation. “He was bitten by a man that was sick and then he got sick.” Valerie thought about what her Mama had said, “Did you get bit?” “No.” “Has Daddy been bit?” Karen coughed up some more tears. Her features distorted into the saddest face possible, “We have to think good thoughts, okay. Tell yourself Daddy will be home any minute and he just might.” Robin pointed at her new tears, “What? You sad?” was the best she can muster. “Yes, baby, Mama is very sad, but I’m happy that I have you two,” she said as she pulled them in for another hug. Her knees ached so she pulled them up to the bed. There laid Botchy. Asleep. She was blind, deaf and would have barked at the wrong person anyway. What a crummy attack dog. Karen got everyone, including herself, calmed as much as possible. It took a little time to get the girls back into the computer game. “Mama needs to get something from the kitchen. I will be right back.” Karen stepped into the kitchen. She moved so fast she slipped on the blood and almost fell on her ass. Karen slid the gun back into its holster. The water in the sink was running the whole time. Karen turned off the hot tap. Even with all the blood on the floor and the shock she was almost certainly suffering from, she still felt hungry. “What a weird time to be hungry.” It was normal for her to talk to herself. The girls needed to eat for sure. Eating would make her feel better. It always had. She found a pizza in the freezer and fired up the oven. A few of the towels that hit the floor earlier had sopped up some of the mess, but she would need to clean it all. Who was going to clean up Steve’s body? There was no way she could drag his body anywhere. Fuck, what a horrible day. “Where are you Mama?” Valerie asked from the bedroom. “I’m cleaning and making pizza. Are you hungry?” “Yes.” “Play your game and I’ll be there in a minute.” She pushed the towels around on the floor with her foot. Then Karen remembered she had rubber gloves in the bathroom for when she dyed her hair. Karen put on a pair and lifted the heavy, wet towels into the garbage can. She was on the verge of puking the whole time she cleaned the bloody mess. She sprayed bleach all over the floor and used a whole roll of paper towels to clean the last of the crimson goo. A few minutes later she snapped off the gloves and tossed them into the garbage. She placed the pizza into the pre-heated oven. The bleach smell gave her a headache. Karen did not want to open a window so she flipped on the exhaust fans to vent the room out. Her mind was all over the place. She couldn’t focus. She wondered if she could pull the knife out of Steve’s head? She needed to carry another blade, but what if she pulled the knife out and he came back alive? Does it work that way? Fuck! Karen wanted to punch something! She did not have another sheathed knife in this house and she couldn’t carry a blade in her back pocket. She could slice her ass cheek off. Then it hit her. She knew what she could do. Karen opened the drawer and pulled out a handful of butcher and steak knives. She left one on the counter by the sink. Karen then stabbed a knife into the sheetrock by the backdoor. She stabbed two more into the wall close to the front door. The last three she forced into the wall in the bedroom. It felt great to stab the walls of the shitty apartment. It also felt like the act of a crazy person.