may make his jealousy of them worse.”
“Can you give me until tomorrow then I’ll show you how to do that?”
“I don’t think he’ll do anything immediately. I’ve been thinking of the way you described how dark users access the power and the long intervals between his appearances. He must need time to recover from his use. Add to that, he doesn’t seem to be obsessing only on me but the people who used to bully him.”
“He must also spend time with his teacher. Dark users, when they take on a student, demand things in return. They aren’t just evil to innocent people. Their natures are evil. Ryan’s mentor probably has him doing things in payment for the lessons.”
“Ryan did say something about sacrifices he had to make. I can’t feel sorry for him, as he chose to become the person he is. He obviously resisted joining his parents in the practice when he was young. That’s why he focused on the gadgets he built. They may’ve influenced him, to some degree, but each person has the choice of what kind of person they become. He chose to follow the path to evil and allow foolish notions to enter his head, that I’d be impressed with his commitment. It shows, he didn’t pay any attention to who I was, when we were in school. If he’d learned anything about me, he would’ve seen, I was not the type who’d be impressed by evil actions. I was looking to becoming an FBI agent. I wanted to fight crime. Now, I’ll be fighting magical crime.”
“I’ll show you how to help keep your friends and family as safe as possible tomorrow. You can’t protect them perfectly. Nobody is perfect, not even us. We’ll do the best we can and hope it’s enough. Tonight, if you choose, I want to do something with you, to help with your pain. I also want to do it but I’ll understand if the notion doesn’t appeal to you. Try to be open-minded as I share this. As we discussed before, the relationships I’ve had over the years, have been kept casual and short, so I don’t get close then have to watch them die. They’re kept short to also, hide what I am from them. We’re not even allowed to tell people we get close to except other practitioners. You can give this some thought but I’ve come to care enough that, I’d like to have sex with you. I’ve learned over the years, I can have just as fulfilling experiences with women as I do with men.”
It was shocking but not in a way that put me off.
I allowed my mind to open to the possibility. If I was going to have to keep contact with regular people to a minimum then having that kind of close relationship to Doriane would be nice. It was a little weird, to think about having that kind of relationship with my mentor, but she was also my friend.
In the two plus months of living with her, we had grown close emotionally. The physical wouldn’t be that big of a transition. I already liked making contact with her when we hugged, “What would be the basis of our relationship?”
“We wouldn’t be like a committed couple. You could have sex with anyone you desired. I am your teacher, but it’s more like, if you gained a friend who was older, and willingly shared her knowledge with you. We are friends and will be a part of each other’s lives for a long time. We live in a circle that’s small in population. Those relationships become extremely important as the years grow. My mentor still lives in France. He’s been on this planet for a long time. He’s growing old but has no bitterness about it. He’s had a long and full life, and it’ll be fifty or more years, before death starts to become a possibility. I was thirty-six when my parents died. I was fifty-eight, when my sister passed away, and I couldn’t be there, because I would have been hunted for devil worshipping, if I was seen by those who knew me. I stuck around as long as I could, until it would be obvious, I wasn’t ageing. I had to move frequently, to keep people from catching on. I’ve only lived
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