Without yelling.â
Kate was washed by a wave of relief, which gave her the momentum to push Hector off her lap and get up. She crossed over to the chair while the dog followed, settling himself underneath the table. Kate sat down, watching Sam. âI thought you werenât speaking to me.â
âI wasnât. Then I thought we canât just leave it like that.â He looked at her expressionlessly for a moment. âYouâre really serious about this, arenât you?â
âYes.â
âSo let me get it straight. You want to rent Angieâs room and move in for six months to write a book. Then youâll move back and everythingâll be the way it was.â
âExcept then Iâll have done it. Or not done it. But at least Iâll know.â
âMaybe.â Sam stared over her shoulder for a few moments, and then sighed. âLook, I wonât pretend to understand why you canât write here. If you can do your editing here, I donât see why you canât write as well.â
âThereâs too many . . . distractions.â Kate stared into her glass, the red wine glimmering like liquid rubies. She tried to be honest. âOr maybe Iâm just using them as an excuse. I donât know.â
âBut you want to find out.â
Kate looked up, nodding. âYes! Thatâs exactly it!â She felt washed by a wave of relief that he might understand. âAnd about the bungalow ââ
âI know.â
âI didnât have a choice, did I? I mean, Shelley needed us. But I thought you knew how much I appreciated it. And I really did. Enormously.â
âI know,â repeated Sam, glancing towards the building in question. âAnd I also know you
had
to give it over to Shell. But that doesnât help things here, does it?â
âNo, not really.â
âListen, I have to ask. Has this got anything to do with your father? I donât mean the units, I mean like a . . . you know, a sort of reaction to his ââ
âNo,â replied Kate shortly. âCertainly not.â
Sam held her gaze. âLook, Iâm not trying to belittle the fact youâve always wanted to write. I
know
that. But it just seems to me it only started becoming . . . well, an
obsession
last year. Which makes me wonder if ââ
âNothing to do with it. Totally separate.â
âOh. Okay.â Sam gave a slight shrug. âWell then, Iâm pretty well stuffed either way, arenât I?â
âWhat do you mean?â Kate injected a questioning tone into her voice but really, she knew exactly what he meant. And she sympathised, just not enough to show it.
âWell, I either agree and go along with all this, or I donât â which means I force you to make a choice.â Sam paused, looking at Kate searchingly. When she didnât respond, he smiled grimly and nodded, as if confirming something to himself.
The silence lengthened uncomfortably as Kate searched for something reassuring to say. Something that would let him know that her feelings for him were unrelated to this. Absolutely divorced. But she couldnât find the right words, and the only ones that came to mind rang with meaninglessness, even before they were spoken.
âSo go for it.â Sam spoke offhand, but with an edge of bitterness that made Kate flinch. He turned back to her. âBut I want one promise in return. If youâre still unhappy after the six months are up, whether or not youâve written a bloody book, then I want your word youâll go and see someone. Okay?â
Kate felt a flare of irritation but forced herself to nod. âIt
is
the writing though, Sam. And I
have
to know. Do you see that?â
âOh, I donât doubt the writingâs important. Itâs just I still ââ Sam broke off abruptly as the sliding door rattled open again and Caleb came through with a can of
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