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coming with me, and for bringing Joey. It looks like she had a nice time.”
She nodded. “Yes, she really did. I know I’ll be hearing about it for a while.” She cleared her throat. “Well—”
“I had a nice time, Alice, and I’d like to do it again soon, if you’d like.”
She was quiet for far longer than he was comfortable with, but then she finally looked at him.
“You still want to see me, even after everything I told you?” He nodded, not trusting his voice. “And you’re okay with us only being friends?” He nodded again, because if that was all she could give him right now then he would take it. He had patience, and he wouldn’t give up, especially when it concerned his mate.
“Yes, Alice, I definitely want to see you again. I’d like to get to know you, and vice versa. I have a past, too, and I want to show you all of me.” She didn’t respond right away, but when she smiled at him he actually placed his hand on his chest, right over his heart. It was in that moment, as he stared down at her, inhaled he scent, and looked at everything that made up his mate, that he would do anything for her: maiming, killing, destroying, and loving. Everything he was he would gladly give to her.
****
Alice closed the front door and leaned against it, closing her eyes as she let Luke’s words play through her mind.
“I have a past, too, and I want to show you all of me.”
His power was right below the surface, ready to emerge, yet he was so kind with her and so gentle with Joey. He was perfect in every way, and that made it even harder for her to tell him all the things she had said. But there hadn’t been any disgust from him when she revealed her past. In fact, his rage had been so thick she had noticed several shifters glance their way at the restaurant, sensing what humans couldn’t. But the fierce protectiveness that had come from him was like a blast in the face, and it had all been for her and Joey. How she wanted to just cave and give herself to him, but that would be disastrous. She could never be the female he needed or deserved. There were just too many reminders on her body from Joshua’s “love”, and her mind was just as scarred. If she even allowed herself to go there with him how could she be with him in the literal sense? She couldn’t stand to look at herself in the mirror, let alone even think of having another male look at her. Joshua hadn’t just hurt her physically. He had also cut her down about her weight on a daily basis. Even after his death she still looked at herself with disgust, and knew it would be a long time before she could heal, if she even could.
Her thoughts had her moving toward the bathroom and turning on the light. She looked at her reflection, all of the hurtful, nasty words that Joshua had always said filling her mind in a vile, toxic swamp that tried to suck her under. She took her shirt off and moved closer to the mirror, bracing her hands on the sink. She had let her dark hair hang free tonight, and the waves fell around her shoulders. She had dark circles under her eyes, and her skin looked too pale under the harsh lighting. If they weren’t mates, Alice knew Luke couldn’t have been attracted to her. Joshua’s words played over and over in her head, and a sour taste filled her mouth.
“You’re lucky I’m staying with your fat ass.”
“You think anyone would want you with those stretch marks and spare tire around your middle?”
“God, Alice, you really fucking disgust me sometimes.”
She ran her finger along the biggest scar Joshua had given her. It had been the night he raped her, and the same night she conceived Joey. He had been drunk, which had become the norm on a nightly basis. He had thought it would be fun to tie her to the bed and run a knife over her body, and then he had gotten carried away. She pushed that nasty thought out of her head. It had been six months since he died, and every day she thanked whoever was willing to
She nodded. “Yes, she really did. I know I’ll be hearing about it for a while.” She cleared her throat. “Well—”
“I had a nice time, Alice, and I’d like to do it again soon, if you’d like.”
She was quiet for far longer than he was comfortable with, but then she finally looked at him.
“You still want to see me, even after everything I told you?” He nodded, not trusting his voice. “And you’re okay with us only being friends?” He nodded again, because if that was all she could give him right now then he would take it. He had patience, and he wouldn’t give up, especially when it concerned his mate.
“Yes, Alice, I definitely want to see you again. I’d like to get to know you, and vice versa. I have a past, too, and I want to show you all of me.” She didn’t respond right away, but when she smiled at him he actually placed his hand on his chest, right over his heart. It was in that moment, as he stared down at her, inhaled he scent, and looked at everything that made up his mate, that he would do anything for her: maiming, killing, destroying, and loving. Everything he was he would gladly give to her.
****
Alice closed the front door and leaned against it, closing her eyes as she let Luke’s words play through her mind.
“I have a past, too, and I want to show you all of me.”
His power was right below the surface, ready to emerge, yet he was so kind with her and so gentle with Joey. He was perfect in every way, and that made it even harder for her to tell him all the things she had said. But there hadn’t been any disgust from him when she revealed her past. In fact, his rage had been so thick she had noticed several shifters glance their way at the restaurant, sensing what humans couldn’t. But the fierce protectiveness that had come from him was like a blast in the face, and it had all been for her and Joey. How she wanted to just cave and give herself to him, but that would be disastrous. She could never be the female he needed or deserved. There were just too many reminders on her body from Joshua’s “love”, and her mind was just as scarred. If she even allowed herself to go there with him how could she be with him in the literal sense? She couldn’t stand to look at herself in the mirror, let alone even think of having another male look at her. Joshua hadn’t just hurt her physically. He had also cut her down about her weight on a daily basis. Even after his death she still looked at herself with disgust, and knew it would be a long time before she could heal, if she even could.
Her thoughts had her moving toward the bathroom and turning on the light. She looked at her reflection, all of the hurtful, nasty words that Joshua had always said filling her mind in a vile, toxic swamp that tried to suck her under. She took her shirt off and moved closer to the mirror, bracing her hands on the sink. She had let her dark hair hang free tonight, and the waves fell around her shoulders. She had dark circles under her eyes, and her skin looked too pale under the harsh lighting. If they weren’t mates, Alice knew Luke couldn’t have been attracted to her. Joshua’s words played over and over in her head, and a sour taste filled her mouth.
“You’re lucky I’m staying with your fat ass.”
“You think anyone would want you with those stretch marks and spare tire around your middle?”
“God, Alice, you really fucking disgust me sometimes.”
She ran her finger along the biggest scar Joshua had given her. It had been the night he raped her, and the same night she conceived Joey. He had been drunk, which had become the norm on a nightly basis. He had thought it would be fun to tie her to the bed and run a knife over her body, and then he had gotten carried away. She pushed that nasty thought out of her head. It had been six months since he died, and every day she thanked whoever was willing to
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