After she left, I felt like a bigger jerk than ever for using my great wardrobe to bribe her into trying to get my diary back. Even giving her the blue pants and top won ' t make up for what I wrote about her, I told myself. After Friday night, she ' ll hate me just like everybody else.
The trouble was, I had said things in that diary that no one would understand. I had meant them at the moment I wrote them because I was hurt or angry, but they weren ' t really the truth. Not the truth about the kids I wrote about, and now that I had stopped to think about it, not the truth about how I really felt.
Later, when I climbed into bed, I could almost hear the time bomb ticking. Wednesday. Thursday. Friday. Friday night. I was a goner. Blown away by my own diar y. It was just a matter of time.
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
By morning I knew what I had to do.
I had tossed and turned all night thinking of my choices. The first choice was to skip the party and go to the audition the way I was supposed to. That would make my mother happy, and I might even get the job doing the commercial. But that wouldn ' t solve my problem. It was the second choice that made the most sense.
Skipping breakfast, I left for school a few minutes early. I wanted to get there in time to be the first one at the spot by the fence where The Fabulous Five always congregated in the morning. I planned to be there, waiting for them, when they arrived.
Jana and Melanie were the first to get to school. They came sauntering onto the playground as if they didn ' t have a care in the world. They didn ' t, I thought. Nobody had their diaries and was planning to expose their innermost secrets to the whole world.
They gave me a questioning look as they approached.
" Hi, " I said nonchalantly, acting as if it were perfectly natural for me to be standing there.
" Hi, " they said in unison. I knew that they were trying to figure out what to say next, but just then the other three girls came walking up.
" Hi, Taffy, " said Christie. " Is something wrong? "
For an instant I lost my nerve as I looked at the five of them lined up like an army against me. If this didn ' t work, I was doomed worse than ever. Maybe I shouldn ' t even try it. Jana might see this as the perfect chance to get me for once and for all.
" Yeah, " said Jana. " What ' s the matter? "
I hesitated, still trying to decide if I should take the chance. And yet, I couldn ' t help remembering when Jana and I had found baby Ashley. We had shared something so special that for a moment it felt as if we were friends. It had been confusing, and I had tried to explain it to my diary.
Dear Diary:
How can you hate someone and really like her at the same time? How can you suddenly feel like trusting someone who has been your enemy forever? That's what I' d like to know because it happened to me today.
First, Jana Morgan got me into trouble by saying that I stuck out my foot and tripped her—which I didn't do!!!! ! Then, Miss Wiggins got mad at both of us for yelling at each other and sent us to the detention room in the office. Boy, was I mad. Then it happened. While we were walking in the hall, Jana thought she heard a kitten crying. We couldn't find it, and then I looked out the glass front doors and saw a baby in a basket. Her name was Ashley, and she had been abandoned right there on the steps of Mark Twain Elementary. Nobody else was around when we brought her into the hall. We talked to her and took care of her for a little while as if we were her mothers. We loved her so much! You could tell that she loved us, too, by the way she smiled.
When Jana and I looked at each other, it was as if we had the most wonderful secret in the world. It's hard to explain, but I wish that moment could have lasted forever.
Jana was still looking at me, waiting for me to answer. " I need to talk to you about my diary. " I said the words quickly before I could chicken out again. " I know you have it and that you ' ve read
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