it soon before she falls for someone else.”
“Maybe I can get her to see me; maybe I can get her to fall for me.” I give Kelly the same excuse I always do. I’ve been trying to get Crystal to notice me for a while, but it hasn’t worked, but it doesn’t stop me from being hopeful.
“Stop, just stop. You’ve been trying to get her to notice you for years, and she never has. She’s never going to until you tell her. You’re in the friend zone. The only way out of this is to tell her.”
“Always the friend never the boyfriend.” I mumble, she’s right again.
“You will be if you don’t say anything.”
“Thank for the ride,” I say turning to her and reaching for the door handle.
“Running away won’t change the fact that you need to speak up.” Kelly says her hand on my arm.
I jerk my arm away, “Yeah, whatever.” I get out of the car and slam the door. Kelly was right. I didn’t want to admit it, but I knew she was and it made me angry. I know Crystal too well. I know what will happen if I walk up to her and spill my guts. She’ll just feel sorry for me and I just can’t have that. I’ve tried so hard to get her to really see me. Sure she knows I exist, but I’m just her best friend. I’m stuck as her damned friend. I punch the door to my room as I walk in. Why does Kelly always have to be right? My phone goes off and I check it.
Kelly: I hope this cheers you up ;-) attached is a picture of her tits.
Me: Thanks, but it doesn’t help.
Kelly: You suck.
Me: Not as much as you.
Kelly: Dick
Me: Whore
Kelly: Fine. Don’t ever expect me to do anything nice for you again.
Me: I didn’t ask.
Kelly: I know.
I don’t respond. It was sweet of her to try and cheer me up, but if she could magically morph into Crystal, it’s not going to happen. Kelly is my friend but she’s also my fuck buddy. She wants me, but I’m in love with Crystal. Kelly knows she can’t have me, and she knows I can’t have Crystal. Not right now anyway, so we made an agreement, we would be with each other physically, but nothing else. No dates, no expectations, just sex. It’s not a bad arrangement. My only problem is I’m thinking about Crystal the whole time I’m screwing Kelly. I’ve even called out Crystal’s name while in bed with Kelly.
Kelly has never let on that it bothers her. She knows exactly where she sits and that’s on my dick. Yeah, she wants me, but she settled for this because she knew this was as close as she was going to get to actually having me. She’s always been free to be with whoever else she wants to be with. I guess that person now is Nick; like I really care who he is. For all I care she could be banging the whole football team, she’ll still come back and wind up in my bed. She always does.
Kelly has never cared who she is with as long as she gets what she wants. I think about her text; she really was trying to make me feel better and maybe I was being unfair. I pull my pants down, wait for my dick to get hard and send her a pic.
Me: I’m sorry I was so mean
Kelly: Nice! Is that for me?
Me: All for you, baby. Enjoy!
Kelly: What are you doing later?
Me: You. ;-)
Kelly: I like the way you think.
I may not be able to have Crystal, but I can have Kelly any time any place. Besides, sex with Kelly will get my mind off of Crystal. Maybe someday she’ll be mine. I can only hope, but until then a guy has needs and he has to fill them somehow. My phone goes off again. It’s my roommate, Zack.
Zack: There’s a party tonight
Me: Where?
Zack: Off campus, I can take you there.
Me: I could use some time out.
Zack: I’ll be there soon.
Me: Sweet.
Nice. Now that the idea of alcohol and half naked girls is part of the plans I don’t need Kelly to stop by. Who knows, maybe I’ll meet the girl who will surpass Crystal. Or maybe I’ll find a new pussy to fuck. Whichever was fine for me. I pull out my phone.
Me: Plans are off.
Kelly: Why
Me: Something came up
Kelly:
Jaimie Roberts
Judy Teel
Steve Gannon
Penny Vincenzi
Steven Harper
Elizabeth Poliner
Joan Didion
Gary Jonas
Gertrude Warner
Greg Curtis