window lined hallway toward the bedrooms, my little soft nightgown flowing around me as I walked.
I wonder what he’s going to show me? I kind of really want to tear his clothes off again…
It didn’t take him long and I was waiting, sitting cross legged on the bed when he came through the door with a serving tray in his hands, on top, one of the pink juice filled bottles along with a thick white folded… (No, it wasn’t really, that was just a joke I’m sure.)
Diaper. Yep, it’s a grown up sized diaper.
“Jesse, really? I’m not…” He quickly shut down my protest with his deep, commanding voice.
“Listen, don’t . Let me tell you something little girl. You have been off the rails for years and I’ve sat back and watched. It wasn’t easy, it sucked. Then, when I saw you with that fucking piece of shit Derek, I almost lost my mother fucking mind. Really . If that little punk had been around, I probably would have killed him. Lucky for him, he wasn’t. Instead, I find you sleeping on my couch in the office. And you know what?”
I shook my head, his voice intense and pained.
“I knew it was now or fucking never for you. For you and me . I was done fucking sitting around and watching you kill yourself. I’m here for you Kat. I’m gonna take care of you like you’ve never been taken care of. That means fucking EVERYTHING . Like a father loves his daughter, more than life itself. That’s me — for you . Get it? It’s not weird. It’s not some freakish thing about wanting to be with little kids. Fuck that shit. It’s about me fucking loving you more than my own fucking life. And you know you want it Kat. I know you want it, so just let me fucking take care of you, and keep your mouth shut for once.”
My lips fell open as he spoke with such passion. The words spilling out of him like his very life blood, filling the room and my ears and my heart. There was a hum of energy between us as he walked to the bed, his weight shifting me as I sat.
He set the tray on the night stand and put the bottle to my lips. Challenging me to deny him. I stood on the edge of the knife in that moment, it was decision time and I wasn’t sure which way I would fall. I knew, if I pushed it away and fought back, it was probably over for us. He had had enough and made his position clear. If I took it, I knew my life was going to change in ways I had never, ever imagined.
“What’s it gonna be Katrina?” Jesse’s deep voice spun around in my head as the rubber bottle tickled at my lips.
I opened, taking in the nipple and sucking deeply, the spray of the juice on my tongue more than just quenching my thirst, it was filling my need to be cared for, to be safe and loved. Looking into the severe face of the man that had for so long been a distant dream, his brow lifted and just the corner of his mouth turned upward as I brought the bottle deep into my lips.
“Good girl. Now, come here to Daddy.” Jesse’s strong hands pulled at my hips and he guided me across the room as he sat in that huge upholstered chair and cradled me into his lap, the bottle in his hand. Curling my legs under me, I submitted utterly and completely to him as he stroked my hair and held that bottle. The warmth of his chest and the pulse of his heart beat filling me with a sense of peace that had eluded me for far too long.
I finished the bottle but held it there in my lips for a long time. The closeness I felt with Jesse like a warm blanket around a frozen child.
“You ready?” He rumbled.
“Sure. For what?” I answered quietly looking up into his twinkling eyes.
He didn’t speak, but slipped his arms around me, picking me up and carrying me back over to the bed and I had a feeling I knew what was next and wasn’t sure how to react.
Jesse laid me down, gently stretching me out on the white sheets. It wasn’t a joke, his face was dead serious as he picked up the folded white diaper and set it next to my hips, opening up another drawer on
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