table. I try to swallow but my throat is dry.
âAre you there? Is anyone there?â
I lean towards John. âI have to leave.â
Just a whisper, and he turns his head towards my ear and says, âNot just yet.â
They are waiting. Everyone is waiting. There is the kind of silence that you get when the room is full of people, little scraping sounds, the creak of a chair, the sound of a shoe squeaking against the polished boards.
âWe know you are there.â
And in the silence I know it is true. I know he is here. I can hear him. I can hear him breathing, and the moment I hear it I cannot unhear it. There is the regular breath in, breath out, breath in, breath out. I hold my own breath to be sure but his breathing does not falter.
The stone shifts slowly towards the corner of the board. Yes.
âYes,â Charles interprets for the rest of us. âYes you are here with us now.â
âHe is here,â I say. But it wasnât him that moved the stone. That was Charlesâs finger or Andyâs or the Scottish boyâs. A simple parlour game, but he is here with us anyway, just like he was there with me when I was a child, on every occasion that I picked up the phone. The sound of his breathing in counterpoint to the flat beeping of the telephone. A disengaged signal but the boy was there anyway, and he is here now.
âStop it.â I shout so suddenly that even I am startled by it. He is here. I can hear him. I can almost see him. I trip back over the chair, fall, a plate clatters to the floor, the skittering of its many pieces on the floor. I can almost see him. I hold my hands over my eyes as if this will stop him from appearing.
âThis is bullshit,â the pixie girl shrieks. I have startled her with my sudden outburst. I stand and wrestle my fingers away from John. Everyone is staring at me. Someone laughs then stops and the room returns to silence. I can hear my heart thudding in a chest so tight that my own body might suffocate me.
âIâm sorry John,â breathless. âIâm so sorry. I have to go.â
âHey, heyâ¦â John stands.
âStay here,â I tell him. âIâll get a cab.â
But he follows me out. I am certain he has signalled to his friends, his palms raised perhaps, his finger circling his ear, whatever it is, it takes only a minute because he is trotting beside me by the time I reach the car.
âOh darl,â he says and touches my face and it is only then that I realise there are tears on it.
âGod. Iâm sorry.â
âItâs okay,â he tries to comfort me.
âThat was a disaster.â
âItâs okay. Really itâs okay. It was just a silly joke game.â
âAnd Iâm the joke.â
âNo.â
I nod and he gathers me up into his hug where I feel warmer and safer but not completely safe.
âWhat happened back there?â he asks when I have settled enough to start the car.
âI freaked out.â
âSure. But what happened?â
âOld stuff. Dumb stuff. Iâm sorry I embarrassed you.â
âHonestly itâs okay. They were all drunk. You probably made their night. Demonic possession, theyâll call it. Charles will want you at all their dinners from now on.â
âI canât go back.â
âSure you can. Theyâll all be rotten drunk. Half of them wonât remember anything about tonight. The other half will be embarrassed about vomiting in Charlesâs pebble garden. Someone always vomits in Charlesâs pebble garden.â
âYeah?â
âSure they do. Itâs like a running gag at that place.â
He puts his hand on my knee.
There was no one there, of course. He is right. It was just a bunch of kids playing a silly, harmless game.
âI was a million years older than everyone anyway.â
âYeah,â he shrugs, âthereâs that. You can beat yourself up
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