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Victoria's mind felt like she was swimming underwater and she could hardly catch her breath. She looked down and realized the two gashes in her arm were much deeper than she had initially expected. Victoria attempted to get word out to Kate to let her know how angry she was with her that she stopped her from making the one choice that she was allowed to make for herself. But somehow the words didn't seem to come. Victoria could tell the Kate was still yelling at her but now was shaking her and holding Victoria’s arm above her head. She couldn't understand why Kate would do that as her head lolled to the left side and she watched the blood drip down her arm and onto the floor before the darkness finally won its battle.
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The smell reached her nose before she even opened her eyes, and Victoria knew where she was. Back in the hospital, the hellhole. It had the distinct smell of cleaning supplies and death. Victoria couldn’t understand why she was back here when she had finally made the decision to take care of the pain herself. Why had Kate woken up when she did? Did she expect something like this to happen? Slowly Victoria tried to move her limbs and felt the scratchy sheets beneath her skin. She looked over at the multiple stitches crisscrossing back and forth over her pale skin. This was her life. This was what Victoria had done to herself. Her arm would never be the same again. But would anything else? She wasn't sure.
She turned her head slowly to the side and saw Kate sitting in chair reading a book, slowly turning the pages with her delicate fingers. She peered over the spine a few times but instead of greeting Victoria she continued to read her book and completely ignore her presence.
“Kate?” Victoria croaked out. It felt like she hadn’t had anything to drink in months. At first she couldn’t tell if she even heard her because she didn’t respond, just continued to slowly page through the book. “Kate?” Victoria said louder this time, it scratched her throat even more.
Kate slowly lowered her book, her blue eyes peering over the edge. “You’re awake.”
Victoria nodded mostly because she had nothing better to say.
“Since you’re awake, by definition that means you are also alive. And lucky.”
Lucky and alive didn’t really seem like they went together anymore, but Victoria didn’t have the energy to argue with her.
“How long have I been out?”
She closed her book and put it on the side table. “Two days. You have to go through a psych- evaluation before they let you go home. To be honest, I’m not sure that you’re going to pass. Why didn’t you tell me you were having suicidal thoughts? Victoria, you know I would’ve listened.”
She turned away from her judging eyes and shrugged.
“Victoria! Look at me. I’m not doing this just for my own benefit you know.”
“ I know. And if you really want to know I’ve thought about dying ever since Levi left! It makes sense to me.”
She crossed the room as she said, “It never makes sense. There is always another way. I can help you find it.” She took Victoria’s mangled arm in between her own hands and held it tight. Victoria looked down at Kate’s arm, beautiful and flawless, making her even angrier. She just didn’t understand what it was like to be Victoria. She could try, but would never truly understand what Victoria was going through.
Victoria shook her off, “How much longer do I have to stay here?”
Kate stepped back slowly, “Now that you’re lucid the psychologist can come in whenever you’re ready.”
“ Fine. I’m ready.” Victoria spat out.
She nodded and left the room silently. A few minutes later an older man in a gray sweater entered the room.
“You must be Victoria, Victoria Blane?”
She nodded, “Yes. That’s me.”
“ Excellent. Victoria can you verify your date of birth for me?”
Suddenly Victoria was missing Kate and her warm nature. Victoria confirmed the information
Victoria's mind felt like she was swimming underwater and she could hardly catch her breath. She looked down and realized the two gashes in her arm were much deeper than she had initially expected. Victoria attempted to get word out to Kate to let her know how angry she was with her that she stopped her from making the one choice that she was allowed to make for herself. But somehow the words didn't seem to come. Victoria could tell the Kate was still yelling at her but now was shaking her and holding Victoria’s arm above her head. She couldn't understand why Kate would do that as her head lolled to the left side and she watched the blood drip down her arm and onto the floor before the darkness finally won its battle.
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The smell reached her nose before she even opened her eyes, and Victoria knew where she was. Back in the hospital, the hellhole. It had the distinct smell of cleaning supplies and death. Victoria couldn’t understand why she was back here when she had finally made the decision to take care of the pain herself. Why had Kate woken up when she did? Did she expect something like this to happen? Slowly Victoria tried to move her limbs and felt the scratchy sheets beneath her skin. She looked over at the multiple stitches crisscrossing back and forth over her pale skin. This was her life. This was what Victoria had done to herself. Her arm would never be the same again. But would anything else? She wasn't sure.
She turned her head slowly to the side and saw Kate sitting in chair reading a book, slowly turning the pages with her delicate fingers. She peered over the spine a few times but instead of greeting Victoria she continued to read her book and completely ignore her presence.
“Kate?” Victoria croaked out. It felt like she hadn’t had anything to drink in months. At first she couldn’t tell if she even heard her because she didn’t respond, just continued to slowly page through the book. “Kate?” Victoria said louder this time, it scratched her throat even more.
Kate slowly lowered her book, her blue eyes peering over the edge. “You’re awake.”
Victoria nodded mostly because she had nothing better to say.
“Since you’re awake, by definition that means you are also alive. And lucky.”
Lucky and alive didn’t really seem like they went together anymore, but Victoria didn’t have the energy to argue with her.
“How long have I been out?”
She closed her book and put it on the side table. “Two days. You have to go through a psych- evaluation before they let you go home. To be honest, I’m not sure that you’re going to pass. Why didn’t you tell me you were having suicidal thoughts? Victoria, you know I would’ve listened.”
She turned away from her judging eyes and shrugged.
“Victoria! Look at me. I’m not doing this just for my own benefit you know.”
“ I know. And if you really want to know I’ve thought about dying ever since Levi left! It makes sense to me.”
She crossed the room as she said, “It never makes sense. There is always another way. I can help you find it.” She took Victoria’s mangled arm in between her own hands and held it tight. Victoria looked down at Kate’s arm, beautiful and flawless, making her even angrier. She just didn’t understand what it was like to be Victoria. She could try, but would never truly understand what Victoria was going through.
Victoria shook her off, “How much longer do I have to stay here?”
Kate stepped back slowly, “Now that you’re lucid the psychologist can come in whenever you’re ready.”
“ Fine. I’m ready.” Victoria spat out.
She nodded and left the room silently. A few minutes later an older man in a gray sweater entered the room.
“You must be Victoria, Victoria Blane?”
She nodded, “Yes. That’s me.”
“ Excellent. Victoria can you verify your date of birth for me?”
Suddenly Victoria was missing Kate and her warm nature. Victoria confirmed the information
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