not,â and you sing that over and over for a bit. Then itâs âWhere shadows darken not.â I canât remember the lines after that, but in the end it circles back to the beginning.â
âThereâs no place without wind and shadows,â Tamar says.
âI think thatâs the idea,â says Shaul.
âThose arenât even sentences,â says Zeina. âThe lines are incomplete, unfinished.â
I see what she means. The song invokes an impossible land without naming a true wish. The yearning is buried in the words that arenât there.
âThink about those words, what they express,â Aradi Imael says. âAnd then listen to one another. I know you have other things on your minds, but you must play together.â
She raises her baton once more. We start again with new purpose, inspired to create the atmosphere of that imaginary country. This time, the music is something weâre all shaping together, and no one makes any noticeable mistakes.
The rehearsal passes quickly. I thought it would be trickier to juggle Leahâs part and mine, to judge where to splice first and second violin parts, but the more I open my ears to the whole medshaâs sound, the more the music comes alive within me and nudges me in the right direction. I only get lost twice, and I find my place before anyone notices. Aradi Imael looks startled each time I change over to Leahâs line, but after a few measures she always nods in approval.
At eleven oâclock, students begin filing into the auditorium, from the littlest children in Preparatory to our classmates in Final. As Horielâs top medsha, we perform for the entire school. The hall, so still during our rehearsal, echoes with coughs and murmurs. Glancing at the pale faces floating in the sea of darkness, I wipe my palms on my skirt.
Aradi Imael bows to subdued applause. As she turns back to us, a hush falls over the audience.
âEnergy!â she mouths.
We raise our instruments and look up. Aradi Imael holds her baton poised above the score. In the second our eyes meet, I sense a perfect trust between us. She gives the upbeat, and raw joy sweeps through me as I spring into the theme.
The three pieces flash by, and my spirits soar. Itâs oddly exhilarating weaving between Leahâs part and my own, and I almost forget how much I wish she were here.
At the end of our performance, the school bursts into applause. Glowing with pride, Aradi Imael waves us to our feet. I stand up with the whole medsha and smile as I face the crowd. My heart is warm. The audience claps for a long time.
At the end of the school day, Miriam, Devorah, Zeina, and I leave Horiel together along with Reuven and Shaul. We walk down the street in a cluster, exulting in the success of our concert and trading compliments.
âI canât believe you went back and forth between the first and second violin parts without getting lost,â Devorah tells me. âIâve never seen anything like that.â
Shaul begins to describe his efforts to repair a discarded music box to give his little sister for her birthday. Heâs telling us how he plans to fix the clockwork mechanism when Reuven raises his hand. âQuiet!â
After a moment, I make out an eerie melody on the wind.
âMourning music,â Zeina says, her voice hushed. âIt must be a funeral procession.â
Soon, we encounter the crowd. The street is clogged with silent mourners holding black books with silver lettering on the spine. The Maitaf.
âDo you suppose whoever it is died of the darkâ?â Shaul begins, but we shush him.
The sight of the body, draped in blue linen and borne on a litter by four men, steals my breath away. I shudder, disturbed by the Maitafi custom of burying the dead without coffins. Not that coffins make me feel much better. I glance at my friendsâ drawn faces and wonder if weâre all thinking of Leah.
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