started to sob. I couldn’t help it, it just happened. I’d avoided thinking about those early months and years for so long, and it hurt so bad it just overwhelmed me.
Those early days. Shit. When I thought I was in love with him, when I thought he was in love with me. God. I was so dumb. But when the memories came rushing back I couldn’t control myself, I just started sobbing, unable to continue.
When Bottle offered me his hand I couldn’t help but take it, and before I knew it we were both standing as he awkwardly wrapped his arms around me and I sobbed into his chest. It wasn’t long, just two or three minutes, but it was the first time I’d had someone hold me like that in years.
For a few moments I felt protected, and I needed it, indulged in it, reveled in it. I tried to absorb all the warmth, all the comfort I could get from the strong arms wrapped around me. Who knew when I would get the chance again? Or even if I would.
I finally freed myself from his embrace. I had needed it, but it couldn’t last forever. And I wanted to be the one to end it. Not him. Nuh uh.
“Give me a minute.” I blew my nose into a paper napkin and moved away from the table to a booth. I needed a couple of moments alone before I continued with my story.
The old leather creaked as I sat down and out of the corner of my eye I saw T-Bone and Gauge shrugging and shaking their heads, unable to understand why I was getting so emotional.
How could they understand? How could anyone? No one had been through what I had been through.
I closed my eyes, just for a moment, at least that’s what I planned. Before I knew it though my weariness had caught up with me and I was asleep.
CHAPTER FIFTEEN
B ottle
Was that the right button? Yeah, the little light’s on.
I’m getting the hang of this.
Y’hear that recorder? You’re my bitch now.
Hahahaha.
Shit, what a day!
Man, fuckin’ Red.
Why in the hell did he have to get mixed up with that crazy bitch. I had enough on my plate working those Mexicans without all this shit too. But Red just had to get his dick wet, didn’t he? Fuck.
So when that broad came in I wasn’t sure whether to believe her story at first. But shit, when we saw Red’s bike?
Damn, something was up. There was no way Red would leave his brand new motorcycle lying around like that. No way.
You should have seen her face when we opened up her underwear drawer. She had some sexy little pieces in there too. Twist could hardly keep his tongue in his mouth, and I can’t say I blame him. I had to give him a little smack for that. Can’t blame him though.
She’s got a nice little body on her, that’s for sure. Although we didn’t say anything we were all imagining her in one of those little thongs, and nothing else. I wondered if she was wearing one today?
I asked her earlier if she was really into our dipshit of a prospect. She gave a laugh like I was an idiot for asking. Then she said something about a girl ‘having needs’. I guess she was just using Red for a one night stand and the poor bastard ended up getting a hell of a lot more than he bargained for. I’d say it serves him right if he gets out of this, but he’s just the same as any of the rest of us, isn’t he? I know I wouldn’t have turned her down.
Anyway, she wasn’t wrong when she told us that ex of hers was a fuckin’ psycho. Tried to blow us the fuck up. Asshole. He’s one sick puppy, that’s for sure, and when a puppy’s that sick there ain’t no other answer but to put it down. We gotta’ find the little fuck first though.
I got Twist and every hangabout out looking for him. We’ll find the fucker before too long, then boom, bye bye asshole.
Ole’ crazy-eyes didn’t finish telling us about him yet, but she’s napping in a booth now. God knows how, it’s noisy as all hell out there.
She can’t sleep out there all night anyway, can she? I should probably bring her in here. It’d be safer. And maybe she’ll want a little
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