raise. Thereâs enough in that trust fund to start usâI know I donât get it till Iâm twenty-five but there must be a way, there has to be a way.â
She said, after a moment, âWith what I makeâand what you makeâwe could manage, I think.â
She didnât want to marry; not when she said it over to herself; but with Tom thereâand those heart-piercing words still burning in her brain, âWhy do I ever have to leave you?ââshe surrendered.
She must marry him, or lose him. She took her two small hands and pushed back the hair from her face. The widowâs peak was ruffled; it gave her an urchin, elfin look.
âManage? Do you think,â shouted Tom, âthat Iâd let my wife keep on working?â
He came of a generation of men whose wives had not worked. That is to say, they had kept houses and budgets, borne children, scrubbed and cooked and slaved and fought their way up into a little leisure and comfort. They had been pioneer women some of them, women who carried guns as well as babies, women who could wield an ax.
But they had not worked for money.
Or had they?
They had not, at any rate, worked for wages.
She said, startled, âBut, Tom, unless I do go on working, it isnât possible.â
âWhy notâif youâre willing to sacrificeââ
She cried out, wounded, âOh, I am, you know I am! But look at usâJennie and me. She gets forty a week, my salary comes to a little less, not counting the Christmas bonus. And we barely manage.â
He said sullenly, âI wonât always be getting just fifty.â
âNo. No. Of course, you wonât. But,â she cried again, âyou havenât thought of me at allâof how much I like my work, how anxious I am to get on with it.â
âWhere to?â he demanded.
She said, gray eyes dark with something near to anger. âThereâs Sarahâs job sometime, if I fit myself for it. She isnât going to stop either. Tom, Iâm only twenty-twoâby the time Iâm thirtyââ
âBy the time youâre thirty, youâll be an old woman,â he said absurdly. Then he went down on his knees beside her, awkward, boyish, touching.
âI do love you so muchâand you love me, you know you love me!â
He pulled her down, close, closer, kissed her with longing, with anger, with frustration. After a long moment during which they both forgot all that had led up to this emotional climax, she drew herself away.
âTom, pleaseâweâre insane, both of us, we canât go on like this, youâll have to stop coming here, weâll go out, the way we used to. I wish,â she said brokenly, âthat Iâd never left the club!â What she meant was, I wish I had not opened this particular door to temptation .
âThen you wonât marry me?â
âOh, Tomââsuddenly she was tired, beaten down by fatigueââoh, Tom, donât be childish! No, I wonât marry you and give up my job.â
âThatâs enough, then.â
He flung himself out of the door. When Jennie came in half an hour later Lynn was in bed. She was crying. Jennie had her moments of tact. She did not switch on the lights; she walked into her bedroom instead and spoke to Lynn from that distance. âLousy evening,â reported Jennie, with a yawn. âIâm getting fed up with this sort of thing. Give you a two-fifty table dâhôte and think they can get funny with their hands for that price. Boy, even to the buyers my legs are worth forty a weekâand hands off!â
Lynn made no answer. She knew Jennie required none. Shewas grateful to Jennie. She ached all over, she was one vast bruise. It was finished, then? Tom had asked her to marry him, and she had refused. Or had she offered to marry Tom, and he had repudiated her? Both, she fancied, crying very quietly.
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