either of them said that day. And it annoyed Maj-Britt to bursting point that Ellinor had had the last word.
As soon as she was alone she called the pizza delivery.
Six days had passed since she sent her reply. Six days to let her feeling of repugnance slowly but surely fade away; or at least it no longer bothered her more than she could stand. She had enough to think about with being annoyed at Ellinor. But then one morning she again heard a noise in her useless letter basket, and before the flap on the letter-box snapped shut she knew that it was another letter from Vanja. She could feel it through the whole flat; she didn’t even have to go to the door to have it confirmed.
She let the letter lie there, and avoided looking towards the door when she passed by in the hall. But then Ellinor arrived, of course, and beaming with happiness she stuck it right under Maj-Britt’s nose.
‘Look! You’ve got a letter!’
She didn’t want to touch it. Ellinor put it on the table in the living room, and there it lay while Ellinor cleaned and Maj-Britt sat silently in the easy chair, pretending it wasn’t there.
‘Aren’t you going to read it?’
‘Why’s that? Do you want to know what’s in it?’
Ellinor kept cleaning and exchanged a few wordswith Saba instead. The poor beast couldn’t escape, and Maj-Britt saw her quietly lying there, suffering.
Maj-Britt got up and headed towards the bathroom.
‘Does your back hurt?’
Would this person never learn to shut up?
‘Why?’
‘I just noticed you grimacing and putting your hand there. Maybe it’s something a doctor should have a look at.’
Never in her life!
‘Why don’t you just see about finishing the cleaning here and then pack up and leave. Then you’ll see how much better my back will feel.’
She locked the bathroom door behind her and stayed in there until she was sure that the unpleasant little person had gone.
But her back did hurt, she couldn’t deny it. The pain was always there, and it had been more pronounced lately. But never in her life would she consider undressing and letting herself be examined by someone who would touch her body.
The letter lay there. For days and nights, consuming every molecule of oxygen in the flat and making Maj-Britt long to get out of there for the first time in ages. She was incapable of throwing it away. She could see that it was a thick letter this time, considerably thicker than the first one. And it lay there like a reproach and shrieked at her day and night.
‘You have no backbone, you fatty! You can’t resist reading me!’
And she couldn’t either. When the refrigerator was empty and the pizza delivery had closed for the night,she had no more defences. Even though she didn’t want to read a single one of the words that Vanja had written.
Hi, Maj-Britt!
Thanks for your letter! If you only knew how happy it made me! Especially hearing that you and your family are doing well. Yet another sign that it’s the voice of the heart we should listen to! The last time I saw you, you were pregnant and I remember how you suffered at having to go against your parents’ will when you married Göran. It makes me so glad that everything worked out and that your parents finally saw reason. No one should die without resolving matters, it’s so hard for those who are left behind. If you only knew how I admired your decisiveness and your courage and I still do!
I often think about our days growing up. Just think how different our situations were. At my house it was always a mess as you recall and we never knew what sort of state my father would be in when (and if) he came home. I never said it straight out, but I was so ashamed in front of the rest of you and especially you. But I also remember that you always wanted to come to my house to play, and you said you had a good time there, and that made me so happy. I have to admit I was a little scared of your parents. They talked a lot about the
As soon as she was alone she called the pizza delivery.
Six days had passed since she sent her reply. Six days to let her feeling of repugnance slowly but surely fade away; or at least it no longer bothered her more than she could stand. She had enough to think about with being annoyed at Ellinor. But then one morning she again heard a noise in her useless letter basket, and before the flap on the letter-box snapped shut she knew that it was another letter from Vanja. She could feel it through the whole flat; she didn’t even have to go to the door to have it confirmed.
She let the letter lie there, and avoided looking towards the door when she passed by in the hall. But then Ellinor arrived, of course, and beaming with happiness she stuck it right under Maj-Britt’s nose.
‘Look! You’ve got a letter!’
She didn’t want to touch it. Ellinor put it on the table in the living room, and there it lay while Ellinor cleaned and Maj-Britt sat silently in the easy chair, pretending it wasn’t there.
‘Aren’t you going to read it?’
‘Why’s that? Do you want to know what’s in it?’
Ellinor kept cleaning and exchanged a few wordswith Saba instead. The poor beast couldn’t escape, and Maj-Britt saw her quietly lying there, suffering.
Maj-Britt got up and headed towards the bathroom.
‘Does your back hurt?’
Would this person never learn to shut up?
‘Why?’
‘I just noticed you grimacing and putting your hand there. Maybe it’s something a doctor should have a look at.’
Never in her life!
‘Why don’t you just see about finishing the cleaning here and then pack up and leave. Then you’ll see how much better my back will feel.’
She locked the bathroom door behind her and stayed in there until she was sure that the unpleasant little person had gone.
But her back did hurt, she couldn’t deny it. The pain was always there, and it had been more pronounced lately. But never in her life would she consider undressing and letting herself be examined by someone who would touch her body.
The letter lay there. For days and nights, consuming every molecule of oxygen in the flat and making Maj-Britt long to get out of there for the first time in ages. She was incapable of throwing it away. She could see that it was a thick letter this time, considerably thicker than the first one. And it lay there like a reproach and shrieked at her day and night.
‘You have no backbone, you fatty! You can’t resist reading me!’
And she couldn’t either. When the refrigerator was empty and the pizza delivery had closed for the night,she had no more defences. Even though she didn’t want to read a single one of the words that Vanja had written.
Hi, Maj-Britt!
Thanks for your letter! If you only knew how happy it made me! Especially hearing that you and your family are doing well. Yet another sign that it’s the voice of the heart we should listen to! The last time I saw you, you were pregnant and I remember how you suffered at having to go against your parents’ will when you married Göran. It makes me so glad that everything worked out and that your parents finally saw reason. No one should die without resolving matters, it’s so hard for those who are left behind. If you only knew how I admired your decisiveness and your courage and I still do!
I often think about our days growing up. Just think how different our situations were. At my house it was always a mess as you recall and we never knew what sort of state my father would be in when (and if) he came home. I never said it straight out, but I was so ashamed in front of the rest of you and especially you. But I also remember that you always wanted to come to my house to play, and you said you had a good time there, and that made me so happy. I have to admit I was a little scared of your parents. They talked a lot about the
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