toilet instead of going in my pants. When I was done I washed my hands and went back to the kitchen where I found Aunt Josie rinsing out the mugs.
âWhereâd Mom go?â
âUpstairs to lie down.â
âIs she okay?â
Aunt Josie shrugged but didnât turn around. She kept on rinsing out the mugs, running them back and forth under the water. They must have been really dirty.
âNo,â she said. âNot really.â
âIs she sick?â
âSheâs sad.â
âWhy is she sad? Did I do something?â
Iâd been pretty good lately. I mean there was the hat thing from this morning but I didnât think that was it. And she hadnât seen me peeing with the door open, either, and those were really the only two things I could think of.
âAnd also? Aunt Josie? Yâknow you donât need to wash out those mugs. You can just put those in the dishwasher.â
âI know that. I just need . . .â She turned from the sink and looked at me. Her hands were bright red from being under the hot water. They looked angry. âWhy donât you run up and do some homework before dinner, okay?â
âBut itâs Friday. I donât do homework on Fridays,â I said. âAnd besides, I didnât even get a snack.â
âSo get one.â
âWonât that ruin my appetite?â
âI donât know, Derek, will it?â
âProbably.â
âWell there you go, then.â
âBut Iâm a little bit hungry.â
âThen get a snack! For Christâs sake, what do you want me to tell you?â
But I didnât get a snack. I ran up to my room and slammed the door and locked it even though I wasnât supposed to. I didnât even care if the lock broke and I couldnât get out. I almost
wanted
the lock to break. That way Iâd be stuck in there and probably die of starvation and it would be all Aunt Josieâs fault for yelling at me.
I lay down on my bed. I could hear Aunt Josie calling my name from the bottom of the stairs but I didnât answer her. I went and got my desk chair and stuck it under the doorknob instead. Then I went back to my bed and lay down again and stared at the ceiling. I looked up at the Apache helicopter and thought about my dad. He wouldnât have yelled at me like that.
I got off the bed and reached under and felt around until I found itâan old plastic lunchbox that had a cool, black car on it with
Knight Rider
written underneath. It had belonged to my dad when he was my age and was filled with every letter heâd ever written me. I opened it and counted them out until there were ninety-one arranged on my quilt. I found the very first one and picked it up and opened it.
Derek,
Hello from Fort Benning!
First of allâthank you for your letter. It was such a nice surprise! Please write me as much as you want, kiddo, I love hearing about what youâre doing.
To answer your questions,
Yesâbasic training (BCT) is hard work. We wake up at 0500 (5:00 a.m.) and our bedtime is 2130 (9:30 p.m.). In between we do a lot of running, marching, shouting, and push-ups. It is VERY important to listen and follow directionsâjust like it is for you at school. We have classes, too, so itâs kind of like weâre going to school together. Pretty cool, huh?
NoâI donât have my own bedroom. Instead, I sleep in a very big room with 49 other recruits who are all different ages and come from different backgrounds from all over the country. The guy in the rack (bed) to my right is an 18-year-old from a small town in West Virginia that only has 20 people in it! The recruit on my other side is also 18 but lives in New York City where he is one of millions! Yesâwe have been given guns but we have not fired them yet. We are learning how to take care of them first. We take them apart, clean them, and put them back together again and again.
Promised to Me
Joyee Flynn
Odette C. Bell
J.B. Garner
Marissa Honeycutt
Tracy Rozzlynn
Robert Bausch
Morgan Rice
Ann Purser
Alex Lukeman