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really bothered by the thought that she was seeing someone else. He must be as interested in me as I am in him, she thought. She made a mental note to try to be upfront with him about her feelings and intentions. If she wanted their relationship to last, honesty was the best path. She didn’t want to screw things up. Chip was her best chance at a more normal life, and after all she had been through, she intended to take it.
    Sara gave Chip directions and happily hung up the phone. Just the thought of being with Chip made her feel like a giddy schoolgirl. Now, it was time to get ready for her date. She flicked on her gold floor lamp, opened the cedar doors to her closet, and picked out a cute sage floral dress and jean jacket. She was going for the comfortable and casual yet pretty look. She then combed her wavy reddish hair and pulled the top of it back, leaving a layer of hair down. Next came the makeup, soft slate eye shadow, navy eyeliner, and black mascara. Sara topped it all off with a quick mist of lavender body spray. She was ready.
    It felt so good not to be obsessed with her escape from life. Not so long ago, she had almost succeeded in killing herself, and now she was about to have an official date with a wonderful man—someone who wasn’t scared off by her and didn’t think she was weird or crazy. What were the chances of that? Sara found it odd how quickly life could change. She didn’t know how long this sudden and rare feeling of contentment would last, and she didn’t care. Any little bit of light that appeared in her life was welcome. She had spent far too much time in a cloud of darkness and despair. She deserved a little bit of happiness, however fleeting it may be.
    Now I’ll whip up a little something for dinner. Chip will be surprised. She thought for a moment and then an idea sprang into her mind. She settled on roast beef, scalloped potatoes, and multigrain rolls. Rounding out the meal would be a nice bottle of chardonnay.
    As Sara prepared dinner, she hummed a little tune. Her mind was filled with thoughts of Chip. He appeared out of nowhere and seemed the perfect match for her. She felt like she was meant to be with him. But why did he come into her life now? Why, when she was on the brink of suicide, would she meet the man of her dreams? Was this destiny? She once again remembered the bizarre dream with her mother. It had seemed so real, even though she was convinced it was likely just a dream. That was certainly enough to make her postpone her exit from this life for a while. She had to wait and see how this all played out.
    Before long, the doorbell rang and Sara hurried to the door to let Chip in. As she flung open the door, her heart melted. There, standing on her porch, was the most gorgeous man she had ever seen. He wore a simple royal-blue T-shirt and Levis that hugged his fit body, but he looked like an angel who had come to save her. His kind blue eyes gazed upon her with affection, and he held a beautiful bouquet of white roses. When he saw her, Chip smiled lovingly, his eyes lighting up like orbs of shiny polished glass.
    “Come in,” she said. “Thanks for the flowers. That was very sweet of you.”
    “You’re welcome, beautiful,” he replied.
    She gently set the bouquet of roses down on the coffee table and turned around. Chip wrapped his arms around her and then began kissing her with a passion she had never known. Their lips soon melted together, and she could no longer tell where his ended and hers began. As he pulled away, she fell to the couch, breathless.
    “I’m sorry,” he said. “I’m moving too fast.”
    Sara laughed to herself. She had never had sex so soon after meeting a guy, and she had never wanted to. She preferred to get to know a guy first, going on several dates before deciding if she wanted to sleep with him. But somehow she didn’t feel like she needed to get to know Chip. They had gotten to know each other pretty well these couple of months while