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back out of her room and sling myself into my couch. Today has been a full mixture of emotions from enjoying my day off to having a total bitch moment to feeling maybe just maybe that I could have a man in my life that excepts Demi and me as a package deal, to being made to feel invisible in front of Inside Noise fans like I was nothing, like we were nothing. 
    My phone beeps, alerting me that I have a new text. I take a deep breath and head over to the kitchen table to dig through my bag for my iPhone.
     
    Ryder: Fuck, I’m so fucking sorry Letty please answer the phone I am calling you now.
     
    I see that there are seven missed calls from Ryder and two from Quinn. I send a quick text to Quinn.
     
    Me: I’m ok; just have a headache so we are having an early night. Text tomorrow.
     
    Quinn: You had better text me in the morning bitch ;) love ya
     
    Me: Love ya too bitch
     
    I read a few more texts from Ryder, all pretty much saying he is sorry for being an asshole and acting the way he did and for the way he treated me and Demi. A little late there, bud. I don’t get the whole saying sorry after the fact; it’s a pointless effort to me. I don’t respond to any of his texts or call him back I really don’t see the point. I chill out on my couch and watch some ‘Control’ on TV got to love James Wilde. I scroll through my phone and check my Facebook and see I have a new friend request from none other than Ryder Phoenix. Really? Do I let him stew a little longer or just get it out of the way?
    I hit except and almost I am tagged in a status, great what hell has he tagged me in.
     
    Ryder Phoenix Status
       I screwed up today with my new girl, I would really like her to answer her phone for me please Letty Shaw
     
    I can’t help but laugh as the first comment pops up.
     
    Lucy Cooper – What did you do, Ry Ry? Didn’t I tell you not to screw it up with them!!!!
    I see that Lucy is the blond from the coffee shop and the guy that’s in her profile picture with her is Rafe, Ryder’s brother. So from her comment he must have talked to his friends and brothers about Demi and me. Shit. Another comment pops up.
     
    Beck Hudson – Dick move, especially since there is a kid involved.
     
    Ok, I do not want Demi talked about on Facebook. So I text Ryder.
     
    Me: Delete that FB status now please!!!!
     
    I place my phone on the coffee table and head over to the fridge to grab myself a soda. My phone starts ringing on the coffee table. I trek over and see Ryder's beautiful face on my screen. Taking a deep breath, I slide my finger across the screen to answer his call.
    “Hello?” I say in a hushed tone. I’m trying to keep the hurt out of my voice but I guess that was an epic fail.
    “Letty, oh fuck. I have hurt you, haven’t I? Jesus, I am so sorry Baby, really I am. Shit Letty, please tell me that I haven’t screwed this up ready?” I can hear the desperation in his voice but as much as I do really want to try and see where this goes, if he is quick to fall back into his rock star role, what about when he has a gig and I have to go watch him? Will he flirt with other girls while I’m there? I really couldn’t handle that if he did.
    “Ryder I really don’t know how I feel at the moment. My emotions are all over the place and I have to think of Demi; she is my first priority in everything here. Listen, give me a few days and I will see how I feel. It’s a lot to take on. You are big deal around her Ryder and all the girls know who you are. I can’t compete with them.” I hold my breath waiting for his reply; I hear him sigh. I’m unsure as to how he is going to respond. He is quiet for a few minutes, so I look at my phone, thinking the line dropped out but the line is still open. “Ryder, are you there?”
    “Do you know what? Fine Letty, take a few days. I’m not going to push you, you want to see me again just call or text or whatever. I won’t chase you; I don’t need to chase women.