Dianetics many years later. Another example: Hubbard declares that the dynamic principle of existence is the urge to survive, and he divides this urge into survival for self, family, group and all humanity. Will Durantâs The Story of Civilization describes those same dynamics. Hubbard dedicated Dianetics to Will Durant but gave him no specific credit for that idea.
By late April 1971, I had been at St. Hill for nearly two months and had completed everything I came to do. My time there really changed me. I was getting ready to head back to the United States. On a clear, crisp spring day I was walking outside with one of the organizationâs staff members. I told her, âIâm going to bring my whole family back with me next year.â She thought that would be great. We parted and I began to walk away. All of a sudden snow began to fall out of a clear blue sky. It was truly bizarre. I turned back to her and she just shrugged her shoulders. Maybe that happens every once in a while in Englandâwho knows?âbut I certainly had never seen anything like it.
Eight
David Goes to England
My life seemed unfettered to me as I traveled back home. That is the best word I can think of to describe it, unfettered. I did not seem to have any inhibitions. I became more willing to do just about anything. It wasnât as though I turned from Casper Milquetoast into Superman, but I was less troubled by things. Emotionally, I was freer. Outwardly I may not have looked much different. Inwardly, subjectively, I felt different and it was definitely for the better, more than worth the investment I had made in time and money. By then I probably had spent about $5,000, which is a pittance compared to what dedicated Scientologists have to pay today.
My relationships with people were always good, save for my marriage to Loretta. On the way back from the airport, I had to switch from driving on the left-hand side of the road to the right-hand side, and this became a little irritating. My frustration leaked out and Loretta remarked, âI thought that when you went Clear, you would be nicer.â
I let it drop. In fact, I have always been extroverted and Scientology only made me more so. I also would not back down from a confrontation if I was not in the wrong. Thatâs how I was and Loretta knew it. Scientology had not made me more aggressive; if anything, I became less confrontational because not much bothered me anymore. I was able to let stuff roll off my back, including Lorettaâs barbs.
Years later she said, âI always wanted to marry a conservative guy.â Wow, how much more wrong could she have gotten? Loretta mainly wanted to get married so she could have kids. Nothing at all wrong with that, and she was good with the kids, great even. She had a problem with me, something that her involvement with Scientology had no great effect on one way or the other.
I began making plans to take the whole family back to England the next year, but I had talked with Loretta about her going to St. Hill first, during the summer of 1971, just after I returned. I paid for her to take the courses I had just completed plus some even more advanced levels.
She was on board with the idea, and other Scientologists she knew were also headed over, so that June Loretta went to England to take her advanced courses. While she was away, I was working and taking care of our four kids. I thought it would be easier if I brought my mother down from Mount Carmel to help me. That was a mistake. With all due respect, looking after kids was not her strong suit.
One day, we painted the kitchen yellow with brown trim. David and the other kids helped. When we finished I asked, âWell, what do you think?â
They looked at it for a while and said, âFace it, Dad, it looks like crap.â
So I went back to the paint store and bought white paint, mixed in a little blue and got powder blue for the trim and we stayed up until 2:00
By late April 1971, I had been at St. Hill for nearly two months and had completed everything I came to do. My time there really changed me. I was getting ready to head back to the United States. On a clear, crisp spring day I was walking outside with one of the organizationâs staff members. I told her, âIâm going to bring my whole family back with me next year.â She thought that would be great. We parted and I began to walk away. All of a sudden snow began to fall out of a clear blue sky. It was truly bizarre. I turned back to her and she just shrugged her shoulders. Maybe that happens every once in a while in Englandâwho knows?âbut I certainly had never seen anything like it.
Eight
David Goes to England
My life seemed unfettered to me as I traveled back home. That is the best word I can think of to describe it, unfettered. I did not seem to have any inhibitions. I became more willing to do just about anything. It wasnât as though I turned from Casper Milquetoast into Superman, but I was less troubled by things. Emotionally, I was freer. Outwardly I may not have looked much different. Inwardly, subjectively, I felt different and it was definitely for the better, more than worth the investment I had made in time and money. By then I probably had spent about $5,000, which is a pittance compared to what dedicated Scientologists have to pay today.
My relationships with people were always good, save for my marriage to Loretta. On the way back from the airport, I had to switch from driving on the left-hand side of the road to the right-hand side, and this became a little irritating. My frustration leaked out and Loretta remarked, âI thought that when you went Clear, you would be nicer.â
I let it drop. In fact, I have always been extroverted and Scientology only made me more so. I also would not back down from a confrontation if I was not in the wrong. Thatâs how I was and Loretta knew it. Scientology had not made me more aggressive; if anything, I became less confrontational because not much bothered me anymore. I was able to let stuff roll off my back, including Lorettaâs barbs.
Years later she said, âI always wanted to marry a conservative guy.â Wow, how much more wrong could she have gotten? Loretta mainly wanted to get married so she could have kids. Nothing at all wrong with that, and she was good with the kids, great even. She had a problem with me, something that her involvement with Scientology had no great effect on one way or the other.
I began making plans to take the whole family back to England the next year, but I had talked with Loretta about her going to St. Hill first, during the summer of 1971, just after I returned. I paid for her to take the courses I had just completed plus some even more advanced levels.
She was on board with the idea, and other Scientologists she knew were also headed over, so that June Loretta went to England to take her advanced courses. While she was away, I was working and taking care of our four kids. I thought it would be easier if I brought my mother down from Mount Carmel to help me. That was a mistake. With all due respect, looking after kids was not her strong suit.
One day, we painted the kitchen yellow with brown trim. David and the other kids helped. When we finished I asked, âWell, what do you think?â
They looked at it for a while and said, âFace it, Dad, it looks like crap.â
So I went back to the paint store and bought white paint, mixed in a little blue and got powder blue for the trim and we stayed up until 2:00
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