you were gone too and I didn’t have my passion to fall back.”
I take a breath and tears clog the back of my throat.
Somewhere deep down I never really believed this moment would come, but now it’s here. And as the words are coming out of my mouth, I swear I can feel my heart breaking.
“I’m done.”
The words are final.
I look at him and let him see the tears and the hurt.
“This – whatever this is... it’s over.”
I open the door and walk away.
The taxi is waiting in the driveway and I whisper a silent thank you to the sky. At least this is one moment that will be quick. Like pulling off a strip of hot wax…
Chapter 16
After telling the driver to take me to the airport, I sit back and shut my eyes.
I feel like I’ve run a marathon.
Every muscle, every fiber of my being feels drained. All I want to do is curl up somewhere dark and quiet. Get away from the world and the people and everything, just for a little while.
The driver steers around the circular driveway and heads down towards the road.
I want to look back.
Just one more look at the man I’m leaving behind, the man who left me behind a long time ago.
Against my better judgment I turn and look.
Joshua’s already got his back to the driveway.
Towel around his waist and his phone to his ear.
I watch him go back inside the mansion and shut the door, moments before the taxi reaches the road and my view of the mansion and the man I love are gone.
It’s really over and he’s already moving on.
“Are you okay, sweetheart?” the driver asks and I manage a weak smile.
“I will be.”
I use my phone to book the first flight back to New York then call Nicole.
“What’s happened?” she asks. “Your voice sounds funny.”
“I left Joshua.”
She’s silent for a beat and I hear her breath hiss over the phone. “I’m so sorry.”
“Me too.” I sniff and wipe my nose. “But it’s a good thing – I think. I’ve got the number of this new gaming company and I’ll give them a call tomorrow. I’ve been waiting on hold for long enough. It’s time for me to take control of my life.”
“Good for you, Jen. I’m in California right now but you can stay at my place in New York if you want. I’ll tell Mrs. Gardner to give you the key. Do you want me to come home?”
“No!” I reply, though honestly touched that she offered. “I’m fine. I just need a few days to get myself together.”
“You stay as long as you want. It’ll give me an excuse to come home more often, and I miss my old roomie.”
We say our goodbyes and I settle back in my seat. When I open my eyes again it’s to find the driver looking back at me.
“We’re here.”
As I’m walking through the airport, I can’t help darting my gaze around.
My heart drops when all I see are strange faces.
Stupid.
Did I really think he would chase me?
Try to stop me?
I feel more tears stinging my eyes but I blink them back.
I’ve done enough crying for one day. Joshua has probably already found a replacement for me. My leaving wasn’t even a blip on his radar.
I collect my tickets and a couple of hours later, I’m boarding my flight.
Sitting numbly, I watch as the plane slowly fills up with people taking their seats all around me. I just want to sleep and wake up back in New York, back where I belong.
The two women in front of me are chatting in front of me, and a couple of seats over a man is complaining about the fact that he has to have his chair upright during takeoff.
Suddenly the words start to grab my attention.
It’s kind of like the two women in front are talking at each other or they’re having two separate conversations.
Maybe they’re on their phones?
Or maybe I’m just exhausted.
I shut my eyes.
“I’m so sorry,” one woman says.
“I’m so blind sometimes,” the other woman replies.
“And I know I made a huge mistake.”
I open my eyes, frowning.
Something feels off
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