off’. If only it were that easy. Kadyn… That kiss had sealed both our fates; she’d damn near blown off the top of my fucking head. So soft and sweet, her taste was still on my tongue hours later as I’d tossed and turned on my bed trying to make sense of the whole thing. Where did we go from here? Was I even ready to swim in those waters again? I was twisting myself in knots with no real answers. “I don’t feel like going to the beach bro, you guys go on without me.” I went back to throwing the ball up in the air as I laid back on the bed. “I think you might want to rethink that one bro.” It was the way he said it that had me looking at him suspiciously. “What did you do now?” I sat up and flexed my shoulders, have to be on the alert when this sneaky fuck was up to his shit, and who knows what it was this time. “Why do you always have to be so suspicious bro? Lets just go you have ten minutes the others are already waiting.” He stood over me and punched me in the shoulder. What the fuck did he want with the beach so early in the damn morning? I got up and looked for my swim trunks, there was no point in denying him; he’d only nag my ass to death until he got his way anyway. “Fine get out of here let me get dressed.” My first thought was that it would be hours before I saw Kadyn again. I hadn’t even done my morning drive by; just to make sure she was okay mind you. Yeah right. Sometimes I parked across from the diner and watched her through the glass as she worked. Three days a week, she walked to Doc Graves office and I still didn’t know what that was about but I knew it couldn’t be good. Doc was a head shrinker or at least that’s what we call him around here. What could be wrong with her that she had to go see him? And did it have anything to do with her skittishness? Every time I thought of the reasons behind her behavior my guts hurt. If someone had hurt her I’d kill the fucker. And that was just crazy. If I turned into Josh I’d throw myself off the fucking roof, no way I wanted to be that gone over a chick.
They were all waiting for me when I finally made it downstairs. “What the fuck is all that shit?” They had baskets and coolers and about a million blankets. “It’s a picnic caveman, let’s go.” Carrie came over and hooked my elbow dragging me out the door. I looked back at her husband to rescue me but he was pretending not to notice. Nessa and the douche were bringing up the rare, I was almost expecting to see the parents but they just came to see us off with big stupid smiles. I got the feeling everybody knew something I didn’t and I don’t like that one bit. Or maybe I was just being paranoid since no one mentioned anything suspicious. There was a lot of chatter and playing around as we headed for the beach about a half an hour away. I felt some of my tension ease a little as we got farther away from town. I think I’m a little afraid of Kadyn Daniels truth be known. The things she makes me feel can’t be right can they? How could someone else have so much power over you, someone you hardly even knew? If that damn kiss was anything to go by she was going to have me hopping. I looked at Josh and Carrie as I drove, taking covert peeks now and then. Is that what I would look like around Kadyn? That happy to be alive but I’ll slit your throat if you fuck with her look? I shook my head to clear the image. This is what I’m afraid of, you see, if Kadyn is the one, then there’s a whole lot she’s gonna have to put up with. Not only am I changed because of my last experience in the love game; I refuse to let anyone ever fuck me over like that again. But I have the feeling that with her I won’t be able to control myself. If she’s been hurt, what I have in me, the things she seems to draw out of me might be too much for her. But can I afford to let her go? That’s the question plaguing me, and the one that needed answering