had girlfriends in high school and college, but being Kenna’s primary caretaker didn’t leave me time for anyone else. She had to be my first priority and I knew no one would be satisfied taking the back seat to her.” I take a sip of water and try not to think about how uncomfortable answering questions makes me. I school my expression when I glance at her, wanting her to be comfortable asking me more. I know this is important to her and as much as I hate talking about myself, I know it’s something I need to do.
“What about once Kenna was out of the house? You never had any relationships then?” She tucks a stray piece of hair behind her ear and waits for my answer.
“No, I didn’t do relationships. I dated some, but being on the police force kept me busy. Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t behave like a saint. I had enough attention from women, I just never met anyone I felt the urge to be with.”
Until now.
I hear those words in my head, but I can’t say them aloud. I’m trying to figure out how this is going to go. I’m still trying to talk myself out of becoming involved any more than I already am. I know I’m all wrong for her, but I don’t think I can stay away. I told myself tonight would be the last time I could be with her, the last time I could kiss her, but my desire for Janny is too strong to set her free. She calms my demons and makes me feel whole again. She makes me forget about all the ways my life has changed in the past few years and she makes me feel like the man I used to be.
I take a sip of water and peer at her over the top of my glass watching her eat a piece of chicken. She doesn’t seem bothered by what I’ve said.
“What about you?” I ask. “Ever been in love?” I notice her lips tighten before she places her fork down. She uses her napkin to wipe her mouth before carefully spreading it out in her lap.
“I was in love with my high school boyfriend, the one who died in the fire with my parents. David and I dated for a couple of years and we were going off to college together.” She looks up at me her eyes filled with sadness. “After he passed, I didn’t date anyone until my ex-boyfriend, Josh. He and I were together for a year, but I never fell in love with him. We’re still close friends though and get together when we can. His friendship is important to me.”
Great, just what I want to deal with—an ex-boyfriend who still wants in her pants. I’m a guy, I know his M.O. He probably still loves her and wants her back. I can’t blame him—she’s fucking perfection.
Chapter Seven
Janny
Kyle and I are at Quake, the bar we bumped into each other at the first night. We’re meeting up with Elle, Josh, Kenna and Derek. He asked me if I wanted to meet his family and I know he considers Derek to be the brother he never had. I feel the same about Elle, she’s as much my sister as Bryan is my brother. Josh is important to me too and I hope Kyle won’t get weird when he sees us together. He has nothing to worry about, my feelings for him are already stronger than what I ever felt for Josh.
We’re seated in the booths running along the back of the club. There’s a table in front of us and chairs on the other side. My eyes keep perusing the crowd for any sign of Elle and Josh. Kyle slides his hand under my skirt and rests it on my thigh. Just one simple touch has me aching for more. My heart is racing and a heated flush moves from my head down to my toes. I think anyone who looks at me right now can see how much I want him. Can they all tell my panties are wet? Do they know how much I want him to slide his hand up the inside of my thigh and touch me right now?
I lean my head back against the wall and close my eyes. I take a deep breath and try to calm myself down as the husky tone of Sting singing “Every Breath You Take” drowns out all
“What about once Kenna was out of the house? You never had any relationships then?” She tucks a stray piece of hair behind her ear and waits for my answer.
“No, I didn’t do relationships. I dated some, but being on the police force kept me busy. Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t behave like a saint. I had enough attention from women, I just never met anyone I felt the urge to be with.”
Until now.
I hear those words in my head, but I can’t say them aloud. I’m trying to figure out how this is going to go. I’m still trying to talk myself out of becoming involved any more than I already am. I know I’m all wrong for her, but I don’t think I can stay away. I told myself tonight would be the last time I could be with her, the last time I could kiss her, but my desire for Janny is too strong to set her free. She calms my demons and makes me feel whole again. She makes me forget about all the ways my life has changed in the past few years and she makes me feel like the man I used to be.
I take a sip of water and peer at her over the top of my glass watching her eat a piece of chicken. She doesn’t seem bothered by what I’ve said.
“What about you?” I ask. “Ever been in love?” I notice her lips tighten before she places her fork down. She uses her napkin to wipe her mouth before carefully spreading it out in her lap.
“I was in love with my high school boyfriend, the one who died in the fire with my parents. David and I dated for a couple of years and we were going off to college together.” She looks up at me her eyes filled with sadness. “After he passed, I didn’t date anyone until my ex-boyfriend, Josh. He and I were together for a year, but I never fell in love with him. We’re still close friends though and get together when we can. His friendship is important to me.”
Great, just what I want to deal with—an ex-boyfriend who still wants in her pants. I’m a guy, I know his M.O. He probably still loves her and wants her back. I can’t blame him—she’s fucking perfection.
Chapter Seven
Janny
Kyle and I are at Quake, the bar we bumped into each other at the first night. We’re meeting up with Elle, Josh, Kenna and Derek. He asked me if I wanted to meet his family and I know he considers Derek to be the brother he never had. I feel the same about Elle, she’s as much my sister as Bryan is my brother. Josh is important to me too and I hope Kyle won’t get weird when he sees us together. He has nothing to worry about, my feelings for him are already stronger than what I ever felt for Josh.
We’re seated in the booths running along the back of the club. There’s a table in front of us and chairs on the other side. My eyes keep perusing the crowd for any sign of Elle and Josh. Kyle slides his hand under my skirt and rests it on my thigh. Just one simple touch has me aching for more. My heart is racing and a heated flush moves from my head down to my toes. I think anyone who looks at me right now can see how much I want him. Can they all tell my panties are wet? Do they know how much I want him to slide his hand up the inside of my thigh and touch me right now?
I lean my head back against the wall and close my eyes. I take a deep breath and try to calm myself down as the husky tone of Sting singing “Every Breath You Take” drowns out all
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