your faction. I told Mr. Holt otherwise. I am not here under any false pretenses.â
âYou certainly are not!â
âYet I wrote what I saw.â
âDid you? Is it only alleged that our people were murdered by the detectives? Who else murdered them? Did we, Mr. Cutter? And do you really think that the operators have the right to evict us from our homes when the mood takes them, simply because we have no leases?â
âThe legal right, yes.â
âAnd who gave them this legal right, Mr. Cutter? Arenât there any moral rights?â
âYouâre putting me in a position thatâs unfair. I canât judge this thing. I canât judge its background. Iâm not equipped to.â
âNo. Not even to approve of starvationâor to disapprove.â
âThatâs not fair, Miss McGrady.â
âI am not trying to be fair, Mr. Cutter, any more than you tried to be fair.â
She would have it that way, and there was no moving her. If she did not convince me that it was necessary to change my story, I did at least decide to put off filing it until the following day. During the rest of the afternoon, I wandered around the farm, observing the preparations being made as the small army came into existence.
I spoke with Ben Holt once more, after the supper meal, which was as thin and unsatisfying as lunch had been. He acknowledged that Laura had told him about my story.
âDo you want to read it?â I asked him.
âNoâno, Cutter. I donât want to read it. Write what you see, if thatâs the way you feel about it. I hear you feel that raising my wages from three to five thousand dollars is ambitious.â
âI remarked on it. Itâs a news item. Am I wrong in thinking that no coal miner ever makes five thousand a year?â
âIâm not a coal miner now, Cutter. Iâm president of the union. If I live like a coal miner and act like a coal miner, Iâm no damn good to them, am I?â
âI donât know, Mr. Holt. From what Iâve seen of their lives, Iâd break my back not to be a miner.â
âOh? Then maybe we should both thank God they donât feel that way. This country lives on coal or dies without it, Cutterâdonât ever forget that. It eats coal the way we eat this stew, but itâs nourished better. Someday, youâll understand that. Someday, I am going to take you into a coal mine. Youâll open your eyes.â
âI didnât tell you, Mr. Holt,â I said slowly, âbut there was some talk back in Clinton about arresting you and charging you with the deaths of those Fairlawn operatives. A man called Fulton Oswick was pushing for it. Do you know him?â
âI know him,â Holt smiled.
âAnd here in West Virginiaâultimately, I meanâwill you win, Mr. Holt?â
âWeâll win,â he said.
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15
So I have set down, relying on yellowed clippings, old notebooks, and a memory far less dependable, the beginnings of my friendship with Benjamin R. Holtâa friendship that was to continue for the next eighteen years, when it was at least in part dissolved by certain events. I call it a friendship; others might call it something else. There were times when we needed each other, which makes for friendship of a sort, but there were more times when he needed me. Yet if I left him, I returned to him, so it may be that my need was the larger one.
I look at him through my memory somewhat differently than I regarded him then, thirty-nine years ago. His tolerance was calculated, which I did not know. He despised me, but he wanted a newsman to see things from his side, and I was the only reporter available. Yet to this day, I know no more about his real feeling for the miners than I knew then; and it is possible that he never knew much more than I did about that particular subject. What he felt about them then, at that moment, up on Fenwick Crag,
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