hair white?” I asked.
“Yes.”
“You colored Abigail’s?”
She gave a small laugh. “No. Her hair is naturally black; it didn’t change when she turned.”
“Hmm,” I replied.
Sarah only did the one-day color stuff for hunting. Ashley didn’t like to color hers at all, keeping it natural. She was a down-to-earth kind of girl. I liked that. Prissy girls with their ton of mak eup and done-up hair and nails were nice to look at and fuck, but I wouldn’t want to keep one. They were too expensive, too conceited, and too much hassle.
Ash played with her stone necklace and I thought about what Hania had said about filling Verloren’s void. I couldn’t deny that I loved Ash and I found her attractive when she wasn’t starving herself. But it was impossible for me to physically love her. The only way I could let go of her would be if I knew she had someone to take care of her… someone immortal.
She was obviously looking for some sort of companion. She’d made Abby. But how long was it going to take for her to let go of Verloren? I could tell that she cared for Abby, but it wasn’t love. She only liked to have the girl around because of her appearance. It was a small step for Ash. But when was she going to find someone she loved enough to start another relationship?
She needed a real companion, someone who would take care of her after I died. I didn’t want her to finally off herself after my best efforts to keep my p romise. How could I be sure she would be safe forever unless… I was immortal?
Ash glared at me. Shit! When did I let the wall slip? I blocked her again.
“No,” she said.
“No what?” As I threw down my cigarette, I kept my head down, trying to avoid her stare. Finally I glanced at her.
“Your thoughts were heading in a dangerous direction,” she said, shaking her head.
“What direction was that?”
“You envy abilities you don’t have. You’ve been curious from the start as to what my bite would do. You want to stay with me… but I won’t turn you.”
A silence fell. It was as if the world had realized my plan and was shocked, waiting for one of us to make a move.
My voice seemed unusually loud. “Who else could love you as much for eternity?”
She flinched and her mouth fell open. “I can’t believe you’re considering this, Jason. I had my soul mate and he’s gone. You can’t take his place. Besides, your soul mate is out there waiting for you. Are you going to leave her hanging? If I saw him again…” Words caught in her throat as her fingers found the necklace. “…there would be nothing in this world that would stop me from being with him.”
“Damn it , Ash, you and Sarah with those fucking necklaces of terror.” She dropped her hand. “He’s not here, Ash,” I argued, “and he’s never going to be here. You’ve fucking lied to me to make me think you were moving on, but you’re not. You say no one can take his spot, but look what you tried to do with Abby. You’re going to have to move on and, eventually, you’re going to have to settle for second best.”
“And you would settle for second best because that’s what I would be to you?”
“Yes,” I said arrogantly.
“You’re so stubborn, you know that?” She huffed.
“I’m fucking stubborn?” I laughed. “He’s not coming back, Ash! And you would rather torture yourself forever than let go !” She stood up and I hovered over her, showing her the sincerity in my mind. “I love you, and I know you love me… it may not be the love that you had for him, but we can build it to make each other happy. We can learn to live with each other, but you won’t allow it. Who’s stubborn?” I could feel the air changing around her hands.
“I love you enough that I don’t want you to become a monster like me,” she said.
Anger surged through my body. “Newsflash, Ash: I fucking eat human beings. I’m already a fucking monster!” I tensed my muscles as my body threatened to
“Yes.”
“You colored Abigail’s?”
She gave a small laugh. “No. Her hair is naturally black; it didn’t change when she turned.”
“Hmm,” I replied.
Sarah only did the one-day color stuff for hunting. Ashley didn’t like to color hers at all, keeping it natural. She was a down-to-earth kind of girl. I liked that. Prissy girls with their ton of mak eup and done-up hair and nails were nice to look at and fuck, but I wouldn’t want to keep one. They were too expensive, too conceited, and too much hassle.
Ash played with her stone necklace and I thought about what Hania had said about filling Verloren’s void. I couldn’t deny that I loved Ash and I found her attractive when she wasn’t starving herself. But it was impossible for me to physically love her. The only way I could let go of her would be if I knew she had someone to take care of her… someone immortal.
She was obviously looking for some sort of companion. She’d made Abby. But how long was it going to take for her to let go of Verloren? I could tell that she cared for Abby, but it wasn’t love. She only liked to have the girl around because of her appearance. It was a small step for Ash. But when was she going to find someone she loved enough to start another relationship?
She needed a real companion, someone who would take care of her after I died. I didn’t want her to finally off herself after my best efforts to keep my p romise. How could I be sure she would be safe forever unless… I was immortal?
Ash glared at me. Shit! When did I let the wall slip? I blocked her again.
“No,” she said.
“No what?” As I threw down my cigarette, I kept my head down, trying to avoid her stare. Finally I glanced at her.
“Your thoughts were heading in a dangerous direction,” she said, shaking her head.
“What direction was that?”
“You envy abilities you don’t have. You’ve been curious from the start as to what my bite would do. You want to stay with me… but I won’t turn you.”
A silence fell. It was as if the world had realized my plan and was shocked, waiting for one of us to make a move.
My voice seemed unusually loud. “Who else could love you as much for eternity?”
She flinched and her mouth fell open. “I can’t believe you’re considering this, Jason. I had my soul mate and he’s gone. You can’t take his place. Besides, your soul mate is out there waiting for you. Are you going to leave her hanging? If I saw him again…” Words caught in her throat as her fingers found the necklace. “…there would be nothing in this world that would stop me from being with him.”
“Damn it , Ash, you and Sarah with those fucking necklaces of terror.” She dropped her hand. “He’s not here, Ash,” I argued, “and he’s never going to be here. You’ve fucking lied to me to make me think you were moving on, but you’re not. You say no one can take his spot, but look what you tried to do with Abby. You’re going to have to move on and, eventually, you’re going to have to settle for second best.”
“And you would settle for second best because that’s what I would be to you?”
“Yes,” I said arrogantly.
“You’re so stubborn, you know that?” She huffed.
“I’m fucking stubborn?” I laughed. “He’s not coming back, Ash! And you would rather torture yourself forever than let go !” She stood up and I hovered over her, showing her the sincerity in my mind. “I love you, and I know you love me… it may not be the love that you had for him, but we can build it to make each other happy. We can learn to live with each other, but you won’t allow it. Who’s stubborn?” I could feel the air changing around her hands.
“I love you enough that I don’t want you to become a monster like me,” she said.
Anger surged through my body. “Newsflash, Ash: I fucking eat human beings. I’m already a fucking monster!” I tensed my muscles as my body threatened to
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