her shirt into her jeans and
putting on her jacket.
“No, that was you, Lilly. I don’t give a damn about
being honest. How can you compare me to some college kid? I’m a damn doctor
with eight years of medical school and wall of awards. I’m not some horny
teenager.”
She put her hands up as if to say calm down. “Whoa!
That’s not what I said and that’s not what I meant. I just meant….” I waited
for an explanation but I got tired of her dithering.
What the hell? Let it roll off your back, Bullet.
She’s just another girl who got what she wanted. She probably did not even want
that surgery to begin with, she just wanted to use you, make a trophy out of
you. She probably gets some sick satisfaction at seeing you crawl after her. I
forced a fake grin on my face but I didn’t feel any of it. “You know what? It’s
okay. Let’s pack our stuff and head back to the cabin. I owe you a tour of the
town.” I stormed off to carry some items to the bottom, leaving her behind. I
hoped a bear ate her.
In a few minutes she showed up with a cooler and a
backpack. She was ready for a fight. “I don’t know what the hell you are mad
about. I didn’t lose it when you told me you weren’t sure you could fit me into
your ‘real’ world. So it’s okay for you to reject me but I can’t? You’ve got
one heck of an ego, Dr. Steinmann.” She threw the stuff on the boat and walked
back to the campsite. Okay, she had a point but I was still wounded. The drive
across the lake was quiet, we didn’t talk, despite the incredible sex we had.
Maybe it was only incredible for me. I tried not to think about her sweet
pinkness, her toned bottom and her golden skin. Damn her, anyway.
We unloaded the items and both of us parted ways for
showers, packing and changing clothing. I figured we’d go to town, be back by
three and be back home by tonight. That was the plan. I couldn’t stay here
forever, despite what I might want. I was right, wasn’t I? Life had to
continue. How could I tell her that I had hookups, so much baggage to deal
with, I didn’t know how to fix it? How could I tell her that my clients expect
me to have sex with them, it’s like a perk they get when they use my services.
Yeah, that was too much honesty. She’d never understand that. I could see her
walking away in the middle of that conversation. Miss Goody Two-Shoes would
never understand that.
I blasted the hot water and tried my best to wash
away all traces of Lilly Brightwood from my body and my brain. Once I got back
home, this was going to be it. No more Lilly for me. I was cutting her off cold
turkey. Better I do it than her, right?
Chapter
Eleven
Lilly
Bullet Steinmann was a heartache waiting to happen
and I did not want it to happen to me. The problem was it was too late. Despite
all of my self-talk and pretended caution, I had a soft spot for the sexy doctor.
I had made my case to him, explaining to him how he would not fit into my world,
just like he tried to tell me I would not fit in his. Boy, did that tick him off! I was pretty sure Bullet did not
know what he wanted — me or something else, or maybe someone else. There was no
telling if Bullet was already seeing someone or several someones .
I got the feeling that he was confused about me and as flattering as that was,
I did not want to be with an uncertain man. I wanted whoever I hooked up with
to know they wanted to be with me.
Bullet made it sound as if he would have to change
his entire life just to accommodate my presence. That was so unflattering, so
cruel of him to say. What did he mean by that? That if his friends saw me they
would think he would be settling for something less than what he could have?
Did that mean that he thought he was
settling? I guess this weekend and the few extra days were really nothing more
than a sexy escape from reality for him. Well
screw him! I did my best to think about things while I got dressed. I
purposefully turned my thoughts to school,
putting on her jacket.
“No, that was you, Lilly. I don’t give a damn about
being honest. How can you compare me to some college kid? I’m a damn doctor
with eight years of medical school and wall of awards. I’m not some horny
teenager.”
She put her hands up as if to say calm down. “Whoa!
That’s not what I said and that’s not what I meant. I just meant….” I waited
for an explanation but I got tired of her dithering.
What the hell? Let it roll off your back, Bullet.
She’s just another girl who got what she wanted. She probably did not even want
that surgery to begin with, she just wanted to use you, make a trophy out of
you. She probably gets some sick satisfaction at seeing you crawl after her. I
forced a fake grin on my face but I didn’t feel any of it. “You know what? It’s
okay. Let’s pack our stuff and head back to the cabin. I owe you a tour of the
town.” I stormed off to carry some items to the bottom, leaving her behind. I
hoped a bear ate her.
In a few minutes she showed up with a cooler and a
backpack. She was ready for a fight. “I don’t know what the hell you are mad
about. I didn’t lose it when you told me you weren’t sure you could fit me into
your ‘real’ world. So it’s okay for you to reject me but I can’t? You’ve got
one heck of an ego, Dr. Steinmann.” She threw the stuff on the boat and walked
back to the campsite. Okay, she had a point but I was still wounded. The drive
across the lake was quiet, we didn’t talk, despite the incredible sex we had.
Maybe it was only incredible for me. I tried not to think about her sweet
pinkness, her toned bottom and her golden skin. Damn her, anyway.
We unloaded the items and both of us parted ways for
showers, packing and changing clothing. I figured we’d go to town, be back by
three and be back home by tonight. That was the plan. I couldn’t stay here
forever, despite what I might want. I was right, wasn’t I? Life had to
continue. How could I tell her that I had hookups, so much baggage to deal
with, I didn’t know how to fix it? How could I tell her that my clients expect
me to have sex with them, it’s like a perk they get when they use my services.
Yeah, that was too much honesty. She’d never understand that. I could see her
walking away in the middle of that conversation. Miss Goody Two-Shoes would
never understand that.
I blasted the hot water and tried my best to wash
away all traces of Lilly Brightwood from my body and my brain. Once I got back
home, this was going to be it. No more Lilly for me. I was cutting her off cold
turkey. Better I do it than her, right?
Chapter
Eleven
Lilly
Bullet Steinmann was a heartache waiting to happen
and I did not want it to happen to me. The problem was it was too late. Despite
all of my self-talk and pretended caution, I had a soft spot for the sexy doctor.
I had made my case to him, explaining to him how he would not fit into my world,
just like he tried to tell me I would not fit in his. Boy, did that tick him off! I was pretty sure Bullet did not
know what he wanted — me or something else, or maybe someone else. There was no
telling if Bullet was already seeing someone or several someones .
I got the feeling that he was confused about me and as flattering as that was,
I did not want to be with an uncertain man. I wanted whoever I hooked up with
to know they wanted to be with me.
Bullet made it sound as if he would have to change
his entire life just to accommodate my presence. That was so unflattering, so
cruel of him to say. What did he mean by that? That if his friends saw me they
would think he would be settling for something less than what he could have?
Did that mean that he thought he was
settling? I guess this weekend and the few extra days were really nothing more
than a sexy escape from reality for him. Well
screw him! I did my best to think about things while I got dressed. I
purposefully turned my thoughts to school,
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