heard.
Mother hadn ’t even known the Family planned to experiment with Archetype—Father had insisted that this be kept from her. She was the reason the Family decided to try the drug in the first place: her terrible mood swings had grown worse, her paranoia, and her increasing conviction that none of us cared for her anymore. I realize now this was indeed our fault—we had been taking her for granted for years. Her presence had always loomed so large in all of our lives that we no longer thought to comment, as if she were a steady backdrop of mountains or sea.
Once we all took the drug, however, she had us. Little did we know she was the mountains and the sea, the whole world in fact in a hundred-and-ten pound package.
Father was most quickly and easily absorbed into the stage piece she intended to make of the Family. But he had never been a very strong man. His eyes moved restlessly in his immense head, and now and then he was startled by how high his head was above the floor. Then he would look around at all of us, his Family, as if he did not know where we had come from, or how to keep us and protect us, or who we were.
FATHER : Don’t make so much noise. Don’t look that way. Can’t you see that she’s tired? She always works so hard. She works harder than anyone could imagine. Just look at her. Just look at her. She is the Mother. Without her there would be no home. Without her there would be no Family. Just look at her. Don’t talk so loud. She’s always very tired. She works too hard. But she has it. Men don’t have it, but she has it. She is the Mother. She makes us all feel like we’re going to live forever. She has it. She’s dark and mysterious and she knows how to keep us alive. She knows how to keep us fed. Just look at her. Just look at her.
Sister looked bored and aloof, as she has always looked bored and aloof. She stared out the window as if looking for another life. She reached down the immense distance to the hem of her dress and adjusted it, made it longer, made it shorter. She did this several times as we stood, knelt, lay in Mother’s parlor. Self-consciousness must have been an overpowering aspect of Sister’s personality since to make such movements is quite difficult when under the influence of Archetype. Most people must stand and gaze forward or at one another’s swollen selves if they are not to experience the side effect of the terrible vertigo. (Although this is not the worst of the side effects of the drug.)
SISTER : Why should we stand here? Why do we always stand here? We never leave this room. We never talk about anything interesting. We never do anything. Where’s the good food? We never have any good food. No one ever comes. There is never anything interesting to do.
FATHER : We never have sex.
Sister stared up at Father with her mouth open. With much effort she reached up a giant hand to close it.
SISTER : What do you mean? You always say things and I never know what you mean. You and Mother never have sex? Old people never have sex. Don’t tell me about your sex life. You and Mother have no sex life. I don’t want to know about your sex life.
Father opened his mouth as if to speak again, but with a cry of anguish he clamped his lips shut with the fingers of his own left hand, pinching the lips until they bled. But still his lips tried to move, they struggled like giant pink muscular worms under his wrestling fingertips, articulating saliva until it ran out of the corner of his idiot mouth. Finally he was able to nip the edge of one of his fingers, drawing dark red blood which the fingers rubbed at frantically, obviously unable to return to the mouth for succor.
Mother glanced up at him out of the corner of her eye and immediately grabbed the bleeding fingers and thrust them into her mouth where she sucked them noisily with eyes closed.
His mouth freed, Father still tried not to speak, his eyes panicked, his teeth attempting to clamp down on his rebellious
Mother hadn ’t even known the Family planned to experiment with Archetype—Father had insisted that this be kept from her. She was the reason the Family decided to try the drug in the first place: her terrible mood swings had grown worse, her paranoia, and her increasing conviction that none of us cared for her anymore. I realize now this was indeed our fault—we had been taking her for granted for years. Her presence had always loomed so large in all of our lives that we no longer thought to comment, as if she were a steady backdrop of mountains or sea.
Once we all took the drug, however, she had us. Little did we know she was the mountains and the sea, the whole world in fact in a hundred-and-ten pound package.
Father was most quickly and easily absorbed into the stage piece she intended to make of the Family. But he had never been a very strong man. His eyes moved restlessly in his immense head, and now and then he was startled by how high his head was above the floor. Then he would look around at all of us, his Family, as if he did not know where we had come from, or how to keep us and protect us, or who we were.
FATHER : Don’t make so much noise. Don’t look that way. Can’t you see that she’s tired? She always works so hard. She works harder than anyone could imagine. Just look at her. Just look at her. She is the Mother. Without her there would be no home. Without her there would be no Family. Just look at her. Don’t talk so loud. She’s always very tired. She works too hard. But she has it. Men don’t have it, but she has it. She is the Mother. She makes us all feel like we’re going to live forever. She has it. She’s dark and mysterious and she knows how to keep us alive. She knows how to keep us fed. Just look at her. Just look at her.
Sister looked bored and aloof, as she has always looked bored and aloof. She stared out the window as if looking for another life. She reached down the immense distance to the hem of her dress and adjusted it, made it longer, made it shorter. She did this several times as we stood, knelt, lay in Mother’s parlor. Self-consciousness must have been an overpowering aspect of Sister’s personality since to make such movements is quite difficult when under the influence of Archetype. Most people must stand and gaze forward or at one another’s swollen selves if they are not to experience the side effect of the terrible vertigo. (Although this is not the worst of the side effects of the drug.)
SISTER : Why should we stand here? Why do we always stand here? We never leave this room. We never talk about anything interesting. We never do anything. Where’s the good food? We never have any good food. No one ever comes. There is never anything interesting to do.
FATHER : We never have sex.
Sister stared up at Father with her mouth open. With much effort she reached up a giant hand to close it.
SISTER : What do you mean? You always say things and I never know what you mean. You and Mother never have sex? Old people never have sex. Don’t tell me about your sex life. You and Mother have no sex life. I don’t want to know about your sex life.
Father opened his mouth as if to speak again, but with a cry of anguish he clamped his lips shut with the fingers of his own left hand, pinching the lips until they bled. But still his lips tried to move, they struggled like giant pink muscular worms under his wrestling fingertips, articulating saliva until it ran out of the corner of his idiot mouth. Finally he was able to nip the edge of one of his fingers, drawing dark red blood which the fingers rubbed at frantically, obviously unable to return to the mouth for succor.
Mother glanced up at him out of the corner of her eye and immediately grabbed the bleeding fingers and thrust them into her mouth where she sucked them noisily with eyes closed.
His mouth freed, Father still tried not to speak, his eyes panicked, his teeth attempting to clamp down on his rebellious
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