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no.”
“What happened?” I
tried to sound suitably concerned, but I couldn’t deny the relief I felt. I
told myself it was because I knew Ella wasn’t a good match for him, and Logan
committing to the wrong woman would only reinforce his fear of commitment.
Logan shrugged
noncommittally. “I was ready to give our relationship a real chance, but when I
told her that I wanted to discuss being mutually exclusive, she took off
running with it at a pace I wasn’t ready for.”
“Like how?” I
asked, practically drooling for the salacious details.
“She was already
discussing me going with her to her cousin’s wedding this summer and wanted to
know when I could meet her parents. That’s a little too fast for me.”
“I guess I can
understand where she’s coming from,” I said begrudgingly. “I mean, I would have
been offended if Adam had refused to go to a wedding with me once we decided to
be monogamous, even if it had been in the early stages of our relationship. I
can see how it would be scary to meet her parents, though.”
“It wasn’t only
that.” Logan cleared his throat and glanced at me before continuing. “She also
insisted that my friendship with you was inappropriate, and wanted me to cut
ties with you.”
“Oh.” I was taken
aback by this revelation, and as much as I wanted to rail against Ella and her
unreasonable demand, I could see her point of view, especially with the confusing
feelings that had been bubbling to the surface recently. I wasn’t sure I would
be so comfortable with Adam having such a close female friend whom he confided
in and spent so much time with. I was just lucky that Adam was so self-assured
and confident in our relationship that he had no concerns with Logan and I
being such good friends.
“As much I hate to
admit it, I don’t blame her,” I said with a frown. I turned to Logan and
hesitated before speaking again. “Do you think our friendship crosses any
boundaries?”
I hadn’t planned
on actually articulating my concerns out loud, but maybe if we just discussed
whatever was between us, it would dispel any lingering awkwardness and clear
the air.
Logan kept his
eyes on the road, not looking at me. “What do you mean?”
“What I mean is, I
can totally understand Ella being uncomfortable with our friendship. We spend a
lot of time together, and we’re always calling and texting each other. We’re
basically a couple without the sex.”
I wanted to take
back that last statement as soon as I said it. My whole body was suffused in a
flush, and I cursed myself for not censoring my words. As close as Logan and I
were, one topic we never discussed was sex, whether it was his sex life or
mine. Sure, we joked about it obliquely sometimes, but never in a serious
manner and nothing beyond an offhand quip or comment.
Logan didn’t
answer right away, and when he did, he spoke carefully. “What do you think? Do you think we’re crossing
any boundaries? And if we are, what do you think that means?”
“Of course we’re
not crossing any boundaries,” I said quickly, rushing to clear up any
misunderstanding so that he wouldn’t think I was saying there was anything more
between us than friendship. The last thing I wanted was Logan’s pity and
embarrassment for having to set me straight. “We’re just friends. There’s
nothing more between us than there is between me and Emily. I just meant that
other people might think we’re crossing boundaries and believe there’s more to us
besides friendship, which of course we know isn’t true. But I guess our
relationship can be misconstrued by others.”
I realized I was
babbling, trying to cover my awkwardness over the subject with a barrage of
words. When I was done, there was a heavy silence in the car and Logan’s
posture had seemed to stiffen. There was a long pause before he spoke.
“Yeah, I guess
so.”
I had expected
more than a one-sentence response but his tone was casual and his seemingly
stiff
“What happened?” I
tried to sound suitably concerned, but I couldn’t deny the relief I felt. I
told myself it was because I knew Ella wasn’t a good match for him, and Logan
committing to the wrong woman would only reinforce his fear of commitment.
Logan shrugged
noncommittally. “I was ready to give our relationship a real chance, but when I
told her that I wanted to discuss being mutually exclusive, she took off
running with it at a pace I wasn’t ready for.”
“Like how?” I
asked, practically drooling for the salacious details.
“She was already
discussing me going with her to her cousin’s wedding this summer and wanted to
know when I could meet her parents. That’s a little too fast for me.”
“I guess I can
understand where she’s coming from,” I said begrudgingly. “I mean, I would have
been offended if Adam had refused to go to a wedding with me once we decided to
be monogamous, even if it had been in the early stages of our relationship. I
can see how it would be scary to meet her parents, though.”
“It wasn’t only
that.” Logan cleared his throat and glanced at me before continuing. “She also
insisted that my friendship with you was inappropriate, and wanted me to cut
ties with you.”
“Oh.” I was taken
aback by this revelation, and as much as I wanted to rail against Ella and her
unreasonable demand, I could see her point of view, especially with the confusing
feelings that had been bubbling to the surface recently. I wasn’t sure I would
be so comfortable with Adam having such a close female friend whom he confided
in and spent so much time with. I was just lucky that Adam was so self-assured
and confident in our relationship that he had no concerns with Logan and I
being such good friends.
“As much I hate to
admit it, I don’t blame her,” I said with a frown. I turned to Logan and
hesitated before speaking again. “Do you think our friendship crosses any
boundaries?”
I hadn’t planned
on actually articulating my concerns out loud, but maybe if we just discussed
whatever was between us, it would dispel any lingering awkwardness and clear
the air.
Logan kept his
eyes on the road, not looking at me. “What do you mean?”
“What I mean is, I
can totally understand Ella being uncomfortable with our friendship. We spend a
lot of time together, and we’re always calling and texting each other. We’re
basically a couple without the sex.”
I wanted to take
back that last statement as soon as I said it. My whole body was suffused in a
flush, and I cursed myself for not censoring my words. As close as Logan and I
were, one topic we never discussed was sex, whether it was his sex life or
mine. Sure, we joked about it obliquely sometimes, but never in a serious
manner and nothing beyond an offhand quip or comment.
Logan didn’t
answer right away, and when he did, he spoke carefully. “What do you think? Do you think we’re crossing
any boundaries? And if we are, what do you think that means?”
“Of course we’re
not crossing any boundaries,” I said quickly, rushing to clear up any
misunderstanding so that he wouldn’t think I was saying there was anything more
between us than friendship. The last thing I wanted was Logan’s pity and
embarrassment for having to set me straight. “We’re just friends. There’s
nothing more between us than there is between me and Emily. I just meant that
other people might think we’re crossing boundaries and believe there’s more to us
besides friendship, which of course we know isn’t true. But I guess our
relationship can be misconstrued by others.”
I realized I was
babbling, trying to cover my awkwardness over the subject with a barrage of
words. When I was done, there was a heavy silence in the car and Logan’s
posture had seemed to stiffen. There was a long pause before he spoke.
“Yeah, I guess
so.”
I had expected
more than a one-sentence response but his tone was casual and his seemingly
stiff
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